i dont know wats the prob
well i feel like some kind of toy lah. not sex toy. just a normal toy. why? coz toys r stuff we use to tide over a certain period of our lives, and then chucked away into the dark recesses of the storeroom. then years later, exhumed and relocated to the rubbish chute. and if i try to make myself noticed, like walking out of the storeroom, im just courting an earlier death. throw away immediately. it happened b4. i know it'd happen again if im not careful. is there a point in this vicious cycle in which there is only 1 victim? why do i torture myself so? i think too much i guess. i think i should stop thinking anymore. ah yes. once bitten twice shy i guess. haha. so i dont dare to push my luck. coz even if i did so, i get dao-ed. u wont die if from replying with a 1word reply, yes or no. well if that would kill u then for u to talk would place u in mortal danger. nvm. wat a depressing subject. haha. but seriously lah. i feel weird. i cant seem to manage my relationships. no, not bgr, im perfectly fine with my gf(headgear). well i just cant help but...aiya watever lah. and my body is kinda breaking apart. the rheumatism might b getting better but all in all, it still hurts. then my headgear makes me feel weird. kinda nice though. and im always hungry, even now. and i got weird sleeping hrs. and i think i should sleep now. rawr.
which reminds me. that link alvin sent me, well, it shocked me. i didnt have time to react at all. lets c whether i can sleep not. haha. sorry i dont have that much balls. i mean, guts. haha. weakhearted i guess. and no abt to b 3am liao. the...worst hr supposedly? rawr. but nvm lah haha i think abt sex then everything ok liao. then have wet dreams instead of nightmares. i hope. haha. i like the bleach new theme song. mehehe. smile for urself arh. dont need fake ur smiles. :)
-- 4/15/2007 02:42:00 AM
