the band of 2weeks starts tomorrow.
f lah. u dont like my erotica then dont read lah. crush crush crush. as if that'd remove it from ur mind.
my mentality is that since i can no longer become 'pure' i might as well go all out and become damn twisted.
so u think crushing it up would help?
FUCK OFF.
call urself a friend.
there's only 1 person whom i'd gladly allow to crush.
and seeing that u're not that person, just screw off.
im twisted as i am.
even though i think that im disgusting myself i dont need ur reminders.
i know myself well enough, thanx.
nvm.
i think she read it le. how fun.
that'd disgust her, put her off so much she wont want to c me ever again.
then perhaps i'd finally b able to put down this burden that was never meant for me to bear.
then i can muahaha and laugh and start enjoying life.
oh and.
the ban.
the 2weeks ban. from this coming monday till after my eoys, which would b...5th oct?
yeah. near impossible.
lets try. haha
-- 9/23/2007 06:14:00 PM
lantern festival 07
so i went to rivervale mall for dinner with waikit. and showed him my erotica.
muahaha his reaction was worth my 2hrs of plotting and writing.
not that im gay.
it's all fun, really. 'damn cunning'.
then went back to rivervale for the lantern festival thingy.
damn crowded. waikit's spot-on. they're commercializing the whole affair.
the place was damn crowded.
in short.
it aint fun.
so after like 40mins of that shit, i went off with waikit.
but we found hu lao shi and mrs ng with her son
and alot of familiar faces.
ok so at 7.40 waikit and i ps-ed edward kian kok and hq who appeared randomly.
my erotica with kian kok, i went to my aunt's house, family gathering.
cousins made alot of noise, how fun (:
yep then went the kennel.
and watched the movie 23.
not exactly draggy but definitely random. but i like it for the fact that it ended at 0032, 23/9/07.
ahaha.
-- 9/23/2007 01:36:00 AM
erotica number 4.
ah so today was plain fun.
my pride and joy of all erotica was born under the tip of my pen.
entitle: 'childhood friends'
the twist was evil.
i like.
woohoo im getting more and more twisted. i fear for my sanity.
wait.
wat sanity?
ah well. nvm. the year is nearly spent.
and the messages edward bore, they sorta...shocked me.
she can b that cold.
i havent felt anything resembling human from her since February.
nvm. i shall write more erotica.
1 a school day.
and my elbows hurt. havent pumped for such a long time.
ahhhhhhhhhh.
im still contemplating tomorrow's night activities.
abrupt post.
abrupt end.
abrupt man.
-- 9/21/2007 11:32:00 PM
schizophrenic erotic compo
let's welcome my new love, erotica.
yes, im hooked onto them. i love reading and writing them.
descriptive so colourful, so flamboyantly put across.
things that'd lift ur spirit, lightens the atmosphere, and feels u with euphoria.
now that sounds sexciting innit?
but no. im deviating along those guidelines i once swore to adhere to.
im getting into the more twisted side of it.
although erotica is twisted enough, i've somehow got ways to make it lagi worse.
behold the beauty of alastair's writings.
i think i'd include weird mental disorders.
i already tried schizophrenia.
imagine having sex with thin air.
exciting eh??
oh shit. im getting damn wrong.
wat happened to me, i wonder.
it's nearing a year. it's still eroding me relentlessly.
gah.
-- 9/21/2007 12:38:00 AM
happy birthday vincent and herbert
ok so 15years ago 2retards came out bawling their heads off.
herbert, i mean, hubert, and vincent.
ahaha how random, how coincidental of them lah, same birth date.
they have my blessings.
nah they most certainly arent getting married.
but still, all the same haha
ok so today was kinda fun.
but the prefects bit the fucked up. i am so gonna stare at them next time.
free period cant eat? even the least rational of man would know the answer.
it's kinda DUH. if a certain class gets to eat earlier, they would have time to study if they want, right? instead of queuing up and making others queue up behind them.
spineless brats.
ahaha and magnum erotica would b on my to-do list ahaha
and thanx, timo. merlin's revenge 3 muahaha
-- 9/18/2007 11:24:00 PM
ok so the previous post was 69
just realized. my previous post was number 69! woohoo. so today, to commemorate that special number, i wrote some ahem compo.
nah, i wrote it for fun but since it's so fitting of the previous post lemme digress bit. haha.
ok nvm
so today i reached school, thinking that i'd have alot of time to do the arrested essay.
but no, the class smelt like shit. 'eh wassat smell arh? like shit like that.' and it was an actual turd on the floor near the lockers.
even i, sitting at the most remote corner of the class, can smell that strong blast of air that so characteristic of faeces.
scary thought innit? woohoo.
partied abit with the shit, laughing at other classmates as they entered, unwary of wat lurks within.
seriously dont know how yong khang managed to sleep with that smell.
ok and then i plucked up my courage and balls. and went to try clear up the mess. the shit smudged. but the lumps were gotten rid of.
more noise, more classmates pooling in in disgust.
and kaisheng came, and he somehow managed to simply sit down and whip up his ds and play. stinks yes, but ds comes first haha
and then he poured water and i took newspapers to clean up wats left of the shit.
and so i became the shit hero. =.=
and then managed to finish the arrested essay. woohoo. emo compo.
and being bored i wrote some erotic compo also. woohoo, serial rapist. damn wrong lah, im getting bit the freaked out by wat lurks within my skull.
ok abrupt end woohoo
-- 9/17/2007 10:00:00 PM
yuck im so disgusted by myself
i did many disgusting things today. shocking.
chem remedial was ok. then had lunch at j8 with kaisheng and leonard.
more or less fun, we brought our kfc stuff to mac's to eat. no space mah.
then kfc got space le we move back.
weird thing is im still hungry after the zinger meal. so i went to buy doublecheese.
obviously from mac's.
ate it at kfc, how fun.
no, thats not the disgusting thing.
after that i watched, bemused, as leonard started running amok with kaisheng's ds, and kaisheng chasing after him.
no, thats still not the disgusting thing.
then after that kaisheng sorta pulled me take mrt. then managed to pull me go city hall, coz he got some crap show he has to watch. he seduced me with many stupid things.
now thats disgusting. gah.
then balik kampong. did smth else lagi worse. till now i still feel weird.
then searched for erotic stories.
FUCK LAH.
erotic stories, STORIES. not porn sites.
disgusting, nauseating experience.
eeyer.
-- 9/16/2007 02:01:00 AM
running?
ok, orienteering. stoning. sama-sama.
then go tuition. edward's up there liao lah. then i hungry. so went down mac.
saw the gang. gang as in, hq jeremy dawn jodee. so after tuition, which i was unusually enthu abt, ed and i went down lor.
gah. nothing much to say, they were mugging, but i dont do robbery and stuff so i didnt join in.
that abt puts everything in place.
then walk home. woohoo.
nothing much to say. didnt say much, so dont have much to write abt here.
sometimes i think im just trying to run away from the truth. i force myself to face it, but it's often a garbled version of wat seems like the truth. of course, the garbling's by me. gah. i dont know much, but i know that after nearly a year, i should've learnt to stop trying to run away.
obviously im trying to run away from the fact that i've been running away from facts.
that probably makes things worse.
gah.
dont know wat talking me. im bit the scared. but there's no need to right? haha.
im not emotional. im thinking of ways to curb my bestial instincts. wahaha. u cant expect me to change my habit all of a sudden right??
-- 9/15/2007 12:39:00 AM
sudden urge to sms
was visited by a sudden urge to sms.
whoa. unbearable. ahaha quite stupid if i just keep chucking all the sms-es unsent to my drafts folder yanyway.
totally unromantic and impractical.
so i decided to just let the idea wash over me. and forget abt it.
but seriously lah. tskkk.
oh ya. and yesterday was the oral crap.
ehhh, not that hard lah haha im not exactly sure that i gave a smooth delivery of the speech but still i think not that bad lah.
and mama jasmine mentioned smth abt no failures. ahaha why 3-7 so zai??
oh ye and now for today.
oh wait woohoo i just logged onto battleon.
ok that's beside the point ahaha.
and i got a rather full bladder. and thats random once more.
ok. so today we got released from maths at like 2.17. then marcus and springs started a fight. smth like a fight. hit and run kind. then sunny joined in. then it turned out into some kind of royal rumble, 5v1. the 1 is sunny. whoa siao sunny damn strong. ownage lah haha.
let's bring an abrupt end to this abrupt post.
-- 9/13/2007 08:11:00 PM
first electric treatment
this is freaky, ok?
it was like, ok, the needles are pierced in. then he go shock the needles. =.= and it had a rhythmic throbbing not unlike my heartbeat. and it hurts.
will i ever b healthy again? pause to ponder. will-? nvm.
im hungry.
im always hungry.
random post.
rawr.
oh ya and i mixed and matched my phone straps. how fun and sexciting and totally not a waste of time.
ohohohohoh! and i got the armour 'nemesis plate'. muahaha. damn zai. costs like 700k though =.= heart pain.
-- 9/09/2007 01:09:00 AM
woohoo she didnt delete me
ah at least i know i only got blocked, not deleted.
that piece of news that my, uh, cousin, taught me how to find out, well it managed to, uh, lighten my heart a bit.
then it sank again. why'm i blocked in the first place.
gah.
a question i might never have an answer for.
but there's no need for answers ahaha.
oh ye, and kaisheng's com come back le. that spells runescape.
maybe i should try adding new statuses to the msn plus with 'runescaping', 'battleoning', 'sexing', blah blah. yes, i know, those words dont exist. as in, u cant add the 'ing' to just yanything and try pass it off as a word, but nvm, lemme play with myself ahaha.
sian. this temporary respite from the coming eoys is fleeting.
i need more time to get into the study mood. gah.
this is weird. i should have taken my shower. and yet here i am, in my pt kit.
ohohohoh.
today training.
whoa.
scary. bit the scared. wat if cadets die because of our training?
gah. but the whole training sorta passed in a haze. didnt do much.
uh.
idk, but im kinda worried. for alot of things.
-- 9/06/2007 02:56:00 PM
sentosa
i definitely wasnt ogling at those babes at sentosa today.
i know my eyes too well ahaha
idk lah, shitusuck, but i think u were the 1 oooohgling at the so-called 'hotties' ahaha. dont know wat'd they do to intrigue u so. ahaha
quite boring lah, then it was bathically walking around, and i definitely got my bearings abt me lor! ahaha unfounded accusations, dear cousin
didnt register much details, just that it was sunny, sandy, and sleepy. ahaha (:
and i chanced upon a rather interesting human specimen.
yawn.
im sleepy. and it's only like 1am.
gah. im getting old haha
-- 9/06/2007 12:46:00 AM
jodee's birthday
didnt feel like going for the chinese extra lessons.
so simply didnt turn up. how fun.
then the rest of the day was pretty boring. or rather, very. so i'll skip that.
then tuition. on the walk home with edward, we chanced upon ella. she said smth abt celebrating jodee's birthday. not wanting to miss out on the fun we followed her to rivervale mall. which was just 2mins walk away. =.=
then blahblahblah. bought weird stuff. then go edward's house. was raring to write an erotic compo as a birthday present. but erotic stories from people suffering writer's block would be rather much of a turn off so i gave up. then dawn and clarine appeared. at edward's house. we made alot of noise, made alot of balloons with notes within, blahblah. ella and i got bandaged too. how sexciting.
then we set off for jodee's house. then managed to scare her into coming down. then we bathically partied alot lah. her sister came down too. then blahblah and blahblah and alot of pictures were taken. and she received a rather last-minute present i chanced upon at rivervale mall. some rather, uhh, nice plastic specs, yes. perfectly fitting for children and retards. since she falls under the 2nd category, it's all good. HAHA (:
thenthenthen. talked alot lor. and dawn kept trying to take pics of me. i know im damn handsome lah, but there's no need to take so many pics right?? haha
ah then after the mozzies finally got into us, we left. sent jodee home then we all balik liao. walked clarine to the nearest bus 88 stop. then waited for the bus 88 with her. siala. there's no need lor. she's so violent, she'd more likely b the rapist than the victim.
ow.
then yalor. mmhmm.
lantern festival huh. brings back bad memories ahaha
and edward's got a blog lah, im totally in shock can?! haha
-- 9/05/2007 12:52:00 AM
im THAT emo?
really meh?
ok lah i think abit the over lah, me.
emotional.
but it's ok i'd outgrow it.
nah, dont worry, i definitely wont slash my wrists.
hmm. i've been a mouldering piece of crap for a year. no point, right?
if not for myself, at least for others, right?
i might get retained. 65% overall of the year, i just nice, 50%
and this last term is 45% overall. if i fail this, i fail everything.
make or break situation. and i always fall asleep when the textbook is placed upon under my nose.
i cant simply walk away, citing stupid reasons like 'studying isnt my forte', 'im not cut out to study', 'i can do well in life even without studying'. excuses and warped reasonings are only for the weak.
even if i cmi, i must at least attempt to pass this year and get promoted.
and that means cutting down on gaming and playing.
yea. sounds tough. i dont think i got the motivation and willpower to.
nvm. will try.
this isnt an emo post right?
i may not b able to stand just yet, but i can't remain lying.
-- 9/04/2007 01:19:00 AM
new com
ok, it's up and running. the keyboard not as nice though. cant use the shift+/ to create a ? fast enough, the keyboard would lag. haha.
and there are a lot of waste pixels. i dont use the whole 19inch, right?
sian. then i suddenly thought of smth.
wasse point of having the latest version of msn when i cant even talk to her online?
wasse point of having the latest electronic gadgets if i cant communicate with her?
wasse point of typing all these out when they wont reach her yanyway?
gah.
im not emo lor.
sobsobsobsobs unfounded accusations, go blah lah u all! haha.
study with me leh. haha.
-- 9/02/2007 11:27:00 PM
last day with this com
ok so we got a new computer.
sexciting. so this rickety com will b like replaced. muahaha.
then the new one'd take it's place. how sexciting. so this is likely to b my last post i make on this computer.
well, idk, but pissed though i am with this 1, it has been a thoroughly...enjoyable experience working with it, wat with all the kicking of the cpu and smashing of the keyboard...
all signs of affection. how fun.
and im not emo.
sobs.
-- 9/02/2007 04:35:00 PM
a totally grey day. or at least, for now. im wearing a grey shirt, grey pajamas, and grey underwear. ok. forget abt the last part.
yanyway im still quite disappointed.
where's the parang? my heart needs stabbing.
yanyway went for the chinese physician. and besides poking my stomach and knees he used the 'baguan' simultaneously. eggciting. the baguans dropped halfway through though.
then he poked my left hand also. i complained there got some problems. then he said got bone jutting out. scary thought.
then he bandaged it in a very sexciting way.
i like.
ah. then watched 881. it nice lor. (:
and it's kinda stupid if u log onto msn without people wanting to talk to u.
it's dumb.
i should stop using that dumb program.
i should.
-- 9/02/2007 12:30:00 AM
cher's day 07
it was kinda ok lah. got back results slip. failed 3subjects ahaha but if average out i think i just scraped a 50% overall.
zai huh.
then balik rivervale. loadsa people. pandemonium reigned. bw drew some smiley faces as the sign-in book thingy. then i followed with (: -s. haha how fun. alot of people didnt come back. damn wat leh them.
then went dawn's house. whoa. it was totally stonified. then got to j8 late lah. i went to collect my jacket. then went cp to catch up with them.
they damn wols lor, i had to wait for them lor.
then got to j8 at around 7.20? clarine was there.
oh ya havent introduce the various characters yet. edwin, edward, bryan, kian kok, haoqin, cherie, marilyn, dawn, clarine. and myself of course. hq was waiting in ri, then clarine waiting at j8. yuxin supposed to come. didnt make it i guess. so we went to ri then entered the nice air-conditioned place like 15mins late. of course, we picked hq along the way. then of course we screamed when we saw our star performing. how sexciting.
then go j8 macs. tsk waikit arh. damn f. dont know how reply msgs, or answer calls 1. haha. but managed to go home together lah.
then coz already 12+ le. so being the perfect gentleman i am(ye right.) i accompanied cherie home. bit the worried for clarine though. she lives at pasir ris? and no1 can bring her home as she lives that far away. bus services all terminate le. ah well. nvm. then walked home myself via rivervale mall. whoa. i walk damn fast man, i managed to catch dear waikit and his drinks. so i walked him home and kouped his drinks and then went home myself.
then typing this obscenely long post for myself. (:
sian. i so wanted to c her lah.
gah.
maybe if i go sleep now my dream would feature her.
ok. that's my motivation for sleeping. haha.
-- 9/01/2007 01:45:00 AM