head-egg
HEAD-EGG!
exploding brains. gah.
couldnt do much with the pain but panadol seems like dang effective
nvm i am sleepy
i shall go orh-orh
i shall wake up tomorrow yet again for a morning jog, which is most probably the cause of my headegg.
i shall not come online tomorrow, preparations for the chinese o's, in which i have to crashcourse the baozhangbaodao, since it's not my style to write such essays.
but essential for the a1, so yea.
and proud to say im doing fine(?!)
ok off to sleep. i think the panadol rather effective+drowsy ahahaha
-- 10/29/2007 10:41:00 PM
stop the porn
stop.
(if i dont type this bracketed info, my blog post would b shorter than the title)
-- 10/28/2007 11:01:00 PM
3-7 closure?
oh i havent properly declared that im promoted to sec4.
quite sexpected, but still the thrill of dread overtook me.
after all, i cant blame yany1 for my lacklustre performance.
oh wait that isnt even performing.
ah well, happy to get promoted yanyway.
i can recall vividly last year's details.
last day of school, watched the rather lame/comical show, then going back to class for our report books.
then the speech. a speech most of the 2-5 people gave. the 1 i stuttered, stumbled, and broke down in.
heavy atmosphere.
i think i always get this feeling. every year. at the same time.
also, having gone through my old photos, the pics i have taken with my phone until now, it's like a trip down memory lane.
each pic has its story.
for a person like me, the pics i take all have a story. i think.
so fun, i confirmed the dates with those photos. bit of a heart egg but still it all fun ahaha.
and just being random.
i dont c yanything wrong about self-mutilation. i dont c the point in it either. im definitely not interested in making my body create more cells, convert more fibrinogen into fibrin threads just for the blood to clot, blah blah.
did i get that right? ah forget it.
i like a lil bit of pain. i like it in the mind though. the shapeless, formless pain should b scarier than the physical form. idk, i siao siao le ahhaa i like torturing myself emotionally.
i mean, when people have stuff serving as a painful remainder of a horrific/heart-wrenching past, they'd try to keep it away from them, or dispose of them in yany way they could, right?
but i'd do stuff like take pics, save in phone, bring around me that thing, blah blah.
just to serve as a painful remainder that it happened, and wallow in self-pity.
perhaps i havent gone through alot yet, so i have yet to understand the pain and the urge to delude oneself.
ah well i do know that the abovementioned ways are definitely not problem-solving methods.
rack ur brains more often and u'd understand.
d.gray man 'delete'. im waiting.
-- 10/28/2007 01:52:00 AM
ooh mediacock
nothing much to say.
rather much turned off.
i leave it to u. there's no point in me being the initiator all the time.
-- 10/27/2007 01:52:00 AM
ooh mediacock
ooh mediacock artistes coming to cat high later. mediacorp i mean.
sounds like a rather boring proceeding with many guys ogling and wanking happily to the female artistes' faces.
fun? u decide.
but then again it's an undeniable fact that they are sure to attract alot of attention.
i mean, like 6 beautiful women suddenly trespassing a full-of-testosterone school. they might regret after all the lecherous smiles and leers they're gonna get.
then maybe they'd blog abt how disgusting it was, how lecherous cat high guys are, how this, how that.
ahaha so fun.
and then people would want to take pics with them. how sexciting, as if these actresses havent taken enough pics in their lives.
oh well. people with life wont bother much abt the lives of others. they are, after all, just humans. i'd rather spend my time charging and playing my gba. but then again food is impt and i'd go catch a glimpse on all those glamorous females.
i cant say im totally indifferent towards this event.
if i am, i wont bother blogging at all, right?
oh and.
yargh i guess i should start caring more abt myself. but i dont want to take responsibility of my own well-being. i'd rather b an extra in other people's life.
not that im selfless. im just being damn selfish. i cant solve my own problems, or rather, i dont dare to face them. then i try to do other stuff to occupy myself. for now it's anime.
my method isnt a method at all.
it wont last.
-- 10/26/2007 12:56:00 AM
upcoming OAL camp
im not sexactly interested in going for the OAL camp.
damn. but nvm i got all the time in the world yanyway.
but it so happens to clash with the class chalet i think. gah.
ah well.
i cant say im not worried for my chinese o's. i mean, i can converse rather coherently with it, my writing isnt sexactly too bad, but the distinction is so elusive to capture.
i must get. for a chance, or rather, a choice.
but then again even if i have a choice, would i take?
nah i dont think so.
nvm.
is there yany point getting jealous over other people's successes? or grades for that matter? i lead my life, u lead urs. happy can le.
happy?
-- 10/25/2007 12:24:00 AM
openhouse 07
ok so i arrived at like 8. raining sia. right knee hurting. so when i entered the store i scrambled into my slacks. insulate my poor legs.
then stone there for awhile, watched tjj make loadsa noise abt his watever present, blahblah. damn the aunty, him.
then we went to class 1-4 there to, yea, prepare for openhouse. then the PSPs were whipped out, gky saw, and sc tjj wc and i were hauled to help out at the GO.
then done liao then must get the tinsel or smth. but the other bastards all ps me. bastards. especially tjj. ahaha
and then alot of people lor. ok alot is an overstatement, and we werent exactly busy. and sinying was being a total joker. nvm =.=
uhh. yea. then yalor. balik kampong. watch anime. blahblah.
idk why some people cut themselves just to get rid of pain(?). is it that fun, watching ur blood flow out from ur veins, or spurt from ur arteries? wat kind of satisfaction do u derive in self-mutilation? if ya talking abt stuff like crushing ur knuckles against the wall, that i understand. but slashing ur wrists...idk. getting scarred, nice meh? issit that fun to know that the only person u can hurt is urself?
why dont u go watch 'saw', and learn smth abt life? ok nvm i havent actually watched it yet but i know more or less the storyline. just that the graphics may prove a lil too much for me to tahan, but still it's worth a try.
after all, trying is my forte. and everyone is definitely able to try to change their lives. for better or worse, thats for them to decide.
make ur choice.
the earlier, the better.
geez im scared i'd get hooked onto anime.
-- 10/21/2007 01:15:00 AM
muster parade
ok so today was boring.
except for the last period, in which round didnt come, and rain did instead.
so the loud splashing muffled the screams of the rapes within 3-7
all the taupoks.
how fun.
and as usual im the first guy on top of the victim. and i added thrusts. ok thats damn wrong but nvm.
um. and then like got at least, 400kg worth of flesh on top of me.
bless the victim.
and i nearly puked under the immense pressure haha.
and then muster parade.
rather the funny lah, so many marksman. we worked hard for it, we certainly did.
dont know why keep laughing but nvm it all fun.
um. ye. headegg now. sian. damn the pain. must b the taupok. then tomorrow, or rather, later, got openhouse. need balik school.
and im still contemplating watching anime. but then again itsa bloody waste of time innit, living ur life in shows?
-- 10/20/2007 12:33:00 AM
ooh eoy 07 part2
ooh so we got back the other papers today. how fun.
ok i failed geog as usual, hist, again, as usual. and, uhhh.
didnt fail bio, 58.5
considering the fact that i was mentally exhausted after the maths, well i think i can say i did reasonably well.
excuses.
gah forget it, my lack of studying brought me that ahaha.
ah then chinese, 39/70
nothing to say to that ahaha, except that the o lvl paper better not b of that standard ahaha.
oh yes i feel so totally loved. the purpose has been found. but of courset, it'd b over damn soon ahaha. it's just an emotion that precedes emptiness. and im simply talking abt sian-ness.
er. ya.
and no maybe i wont work that hard next year.
oh wait i should.
haha i think i promoted to sec4 liao.
then must work hard. then. then. then.
i have no goals.
forget it.
-- 10/18/2007 10:22:00 PM
getting back results for eoy 07
ok so we got back england, ss, chem, maths for today.
sian when i got my england the compre i chua tio.
wahlau why so effing low?! was in shock but recovered after awhile.
i was, after all, rather wrong. but my compos caught up and i'd b able to pass england haha.
then ss. siala itsa miracle. i scraped a pass, like, 8/12 for SEQ, 8/18 for SBQ. so total up 16/30. how lucky. =.=
and then got back chem. ok when i got back the section c, i got like 20.5/30 so quite happy. then was calculating wat i'd need to get for the section b for an a, but of course my section b too noob le ahaha got a 54/100 overall i think. but the chem chers mark wrong lah, give me extra 2marks. around there.
siala challenging my integrity. but seriously lah i wonder if i'd still report the matter if it's a grade difference, or if that mark is the mark towards getting promoted to sec4 not. grades, or moral integrity?
then got back maths. cant say i wasnt exhilarated when i got back section a. whoa 35/50 isnt exactly high, but definitely exceeds expectations haha. ok i can do better, thats for sure, but well considering the fact that only a crashcourse was in place, i did relatively well as compared to my classmates. yes, so happy.
then section b i got 30/50. so i get 65 lor haha quite happy liao so i cant say im hoping for more.
though alot of careless mistakes were in place, still. haha.
ah then hang banner. so fun. =.=
then yalor. been watching anime until now. tomorrow collecting humans, bio, chinese. sian.
oh ya. im like easily swayed lah. it's like a single sentence and im totally touched le. maybe that was just a fleeting comment, nothing to b dwelt in, but still i'd wonder and source around for hints of truth within that comment.
did that person really mean it?
all my doubts then overcomes me and i'd b left powerless.
gah.
-- 10/18/2007 02:31:00 AM
wat to do with u??
ok idk why the brackets or watever metal stuff stuck on my tooth always gets worn away.
i mean, it was up for like less than 24hrs and now i kinda destroyed it.
it's been left dangling since 3pm today.
i really dont know wat to do with u. i cant leave u there to rot and die, but who'm i to try do smth? even if i am i dont know wat to do. it's like...i dont know wat to do to, my words, my actions, might all b detrimental towards ur emotional well-being instead. im not tired, just at a loss of wat to do.
damn.
i neednt b so concern 1 lor, i cant say that i know u that well yanyway.
gah. nvm forget it u wont know who im talking abt yanyway.
-- 10/16/2007 08:41:00 PM
the nightmare
the nightmare might come true.
the 1 i had yesterday morning. that means monday u dumb.
idk, it just seems all so real. me being a killer and having a ghost haunting me.
even the phone calls.
quite scary. was a relief when i woke up.
then went amk hub with waikit. the balls so fun.
not to mention random.
aiya. dont know wat to say lah.
oh yes.
the dentists' professionalism is in doubt here.
he seared my lips with some weird thingy.
they still hurt.
-- 10/16/2007 12:49:00 AM
ooh yu ling
ooh intensive chinese was, indeed, intensive.
besides the fact that we have to do 2yyws and 1compo in the short span of around 2hrs, we got the chinese HOD breathing down our necks.
and she so happened to breathe down kunseng's neck. of course she breathed down the wrong neck and not surprisingly, her shrill screams were heard.
then leonut and kaisheng and i tio. coz we using foolscap as the gaozhi.
like that also wrong. fine lor. we poor things, no money buy gaozhi, our fault.
(ahaha yes i know its our fault lah but still, dont deny me the chance to, like, complain, and find a reason to hate her.)
then she wanted to ownself mark our compos. the targeted 4 of us.
of course leothenut changed to mugger mode and words simply flew out from his pen. cheater.
well she got a bone to pick with us lah. bugger.
nvm.
oh and training today was fun. simply fun. woohoo
-- 10/13/2007 01:04:00 AM
ooh kayak
and so when i woke up the sms from weicheng got through. tut lah him waste my newspaper reading time =.= but nvm it all good.
took 89, then lisong and pehwee came on board. so zhun. haha. then we reached CSSC. bw and wx there already liao lah duh.
and my dear cousin just has to worry me so much.
then went out to sea. ooh the sun, so sexciting. and we saw the longshore drift in action when it transported the dead bloated balloon of a puffer fish. damn sexciting. so we zao-ed first, didnt want the fish to catch up with us, it damn gross lah duh.
then we set off lor. damn the tiring. siala the current very the helpful, so totally going with us. ah yes. then the dancer bit the hard to control sia. wont bother to elaborate.
then reached the pasir ris beach. whoa it damn song to just get out of the kayak and float in the sea. damn cooling. woohoo. but the storm clouds like nearing liao so after around 15mins of lazing around we went off back. the current helped lah, but the impending storm was gaining on us. damn the scary, thought we might just get struck yanytime ahaha. life-threatening situation i guess.
and sightseeing in the kayak is definitely much more exhilarating than on the beach. i wont bother to elaborate, would most probably fail yanyway. it's just different. a stark contrast. must experience to know. haha.
then we beached up at the changi beach. washed up and then went to makan. i didnt bother to bring yany extra clothes. i know my shirt and pants would dry up very the soon.
but.
i forgot the underwear.
-- 10/10/2007 11:03:00 PM
painkillers
ooh. went polyclinic just now. then got some painkillers. very exciting. very tempted to try them out.
how'd it feel??
must b damn powder, since need take yanothor pill to prevent gastric pain. ahahaha 1day i'd try.
just for the fun of it. i like pain yanyway.
-- 10/09/2007 07:53:00 PM
after EOYS T.F
idk why'm i so susceptible to throat infections. on average, around 3-4 times a year.
which makes me wonder why im struck this time. stay up too late? no, only 3nights wat.
the cut on the throat? wat, the virus entered my throat through that big wound? plausible, but possible?
weird. perhaps i should go sleep now. the computer is not my life. and wearing a jacket for the whole day seems like the pathway to recovery.
how sexciting, getting this immediately after those pesky sexaminations.
oh well. at least i didnt get struck last week.
cause for celebrations?
-- 10/08/2007 01:00:00 PM
lift my ban
ok so all those pesky sexaminations are over.
how fun, but im worried. will get retained??
siala. nvm. but yanyway its fun to log in and c the inbox fuller than usual.
but i dont think theres a need to join facebook.
just because of the founder's 1 statement.
which is that every1 will eventually become a user.
dont have much to blog abt lah.
oh ya. but my first week of ban arh, damn the unlucky. how nice.
er...
ok nothing else.
-- 10/05/2007 11:11:00 PM