Being impressed.
Being impressed is a rather profound action, or rather, a sentiment that you may not be willing to share with others. Being impressed involves a certain level of respect for the person who did the thing you're impressed with, and one normally only respects people
1) senior to him/her
2) more capable than him/her,
so when one shows that he is impressed, he is generally exposing the fact that he cannot pull of what he was impressed him/does not have the confidence to do so.
Showing that you're impressed really takes a fair amount of courage, and the rewards aren't very encouraging to the person who is impressed. Applause is a way of showing that you're kinda impressed, and if I were to applaud someone for his efforts because I'm impressed, I don't really
1) get anything in return
2) feel good about my hands as they'd probably be stinging from the pain bringing 2 hands together forcefully can induce.
Also, it kinda bruises your ego, because you're basically saying that you didn't expect him/her to be able to do the deed which you're impressed about, and by extension, you didn't expect him/her to be able to do the deed which you do not expect yourself to be able to do either, as everyone tends to have a slightly egotistic streak and would rather look down on their friends(slightly), so if your friend is able to impress you, it just means that your self just got thoroughly pwned.
What's the point of showing that you're impressed then? To boost the impressive person's ego? To 'give recognition'?
Or just because you should, as it's a job well done?
I must admit, I'm impressed. I just don't naturally like to show such stuff, because I don't like getting praised, I don't know how to praise people. =\
Might update this later.
-- 2/28/2010 01:54:00 AM
Everyone's afraid of me =\
So I was on my way home from Compass Point just now when I lagged behind this family of 5. The couple had 2 girls and 1 baby boy, and the baby boy was in his pram, as all baby boys should.
Being an avid fan of Cute Girls, I walked faster in order to catch up with them and to observe the girls' cuteness up close. I managed to bridge the gap and met them at the traffic junction, and I lagged behind some more in order to view the girls from behind(I can't view them from the front what, it'd be damn obvious if I turn back). Even I have common sense.
But at that precise moment of me deliberately lagging just to observe the kids' beauty, the mother noticed my actions and got suspicious and probably protective of her kids, and got them to move faster.
I didn't dare to follow.
It'd have been obvious and I didn't want to scare the kids.
Everyone just seems to be afraid of me :C
-- 2/22/2010 10:45:00 PM
Spoonfeed us some more.
Haven't we all been taught to 'just accept it', and that 'well that's the way things work' throughout the course of our education?
We don't understand why something works in some obscure way in a subject, so we probe the teacher. Teacher tells us that:
1) it'd take a long time to learn
2) it's out of syllabus
3) he doesn't really know.
Education has been reduced to blind cramming of facts, that there's no real need to understand as long as you can memorize, there's no need for any hands-on experience in that subject as long as you're oblivious to the fact that you don't know what's really going on, etc.
You're shown stuff that you can never see on the whiteboard through primitive/elaborate drawings of the teacher, and taught concepts which you cannot apply in real life.
You get to feel good about knowing facts that don't matter in an average person's life, and you feel even better when you're given the chance to flaunt your mastery in invisible stuff when you excel in a test.
Then you laugh at the people who don't know what's going on and don't know that they're supposed to simply swallow all the facts.
What is the point of education?
I'm saying all these because I'm trying to prove my point that my, um, poor performance in the academic field is because I'm trying to, um, say that I am different from the rest and am not willing to conform!
But there's no point whining about it.
Have you realized that people in JCs normally enjoy laughing at the ITE people, labelling them as losers, people who can't study, future cleaners, etc? I had that same misconception. Today, I stand corrected.
My mum's friends came over today, and one of them had a son my age. Amongst her friends, a couple of them have a son my age, currently in ITE. He's doing well, learning all the practical stuff that could actually get him a job, and already getting job opportunities. He's doing stuff that only the best of the JC students could dream of doing. He's being involved in the society in more ways than wasting money on LAN shops and being a public enemy(not that he does that, but that the JC students do), and he helped out in the Chingay parade. Not as just a performer, I think he designed some stuff.
All that power from an ITE student. I feel quite ashamed being in the same age group as him, because I know that I pale in comparison.
JC life--is it really worth it?
-- 2/21/2010 11:25:00 PM
I don't know what to say.
Sometimes, I think that I'm losing my ability to excel in the things I wish to excel. Wait, that's all the time. It's not because of the environment, it's probably due to myself, Runescape, my harem, etc.
I used to kinda be active in school activities, like in primary school. My mum, sis, and I were out to eat breakfast at Ya Kun last Tuesday and we were talking about my childhood and how the computer is consuming my life, absorbing me into its very abyss of no return. But I was thinking--I don't really have a platform for myself anyway. Runescape just appears to be a cheap substitute for the sense of achievement I'd otherwise get from real life, minus much commitment and time-consuming activities.
I can login to Runescape and achieve something I want, anytime. But I can't do that in real life. That's why everyone loves playing games. It's like masturbation--you aren't getting laid but that's much better than nothing.
Chinese New Year hasn't been tiring. It's just..filling. A lot of food, free food(free for visitors such as myself), and eating and eating and more eating. And eating reminds me of a rather weird KFC advertisement starring 2 youngsters and their extended family.
So the guy gets barraged by his grandmother who was pestering him about his current relationship status like 'got girlfriend already or not..?' and he stares at KFC and starts eating a certain meal(its name escapes me). So after awhile, the grandmother moves onto the girl, and starts asking if she has a boyfriend already or not.
Then she eats KFC and ignores the elderly.
I don't really understand why people can come up with such an advertisement. It's a bit off lor. Chinese New Year is a time for family reunion, not staring at each other eat KFC, or using KFC as earmuffs. I'm quite sure everyone can relate to it though, I was accosted by one of my aunts about whether I have a girlfriend or not and I didn't really know how to reply because I'm gay, but I managed to handle it quite well I think. This is social skills, something that KFC eaters would be lacking in should they follow what is shown on advertisements.
Such advertisements are so demeaning to the spirit of Chinese New Year.
There are meaningless relationships which, when held onto, have no meaning. What is your point, and what are you trying to achieve? Aren't you wasting time flirting and trying to wriggle some stuff out? I am willing to afford that time but seriously if my efforts to reach out aren't reciprocated, why should I bother? I don't even know you in person and seriously humans are tiresome creatures. I like dealing with them when I can, but if I don't feel like it I won't. I don't know how you view it but I think the power behind these conversations lies with me, because I'm no gentleman.
Kinda just wanted to break the silence.
-- 2/18/2010 09:09:00 PM
AJ Bash.
There are times when you flip through the newspapers and feel inadequate. That's because what's reported shows a certain inability of yours to excel in a certain aspect of life.
Then there are also those reports that make you go like 'What the fuck, what's your point?'
And there are those reports that have both qualities combined.
A few years back there was this dude who managed to get a C for O level chemistry. Sure, it doesn't sound impressive enough to be reported, but that dude was a primary school student.
OK, good job, congratulations on doing well in O level Chemistry.
Moving on, we now have a dude who, at the age of 13, got...
Straight A's in A levels.
A 13 year old kid, A's in A levels.
I'm rendered speechless.
Wow, I nearly failed to promote, and I was 17 when I took my promotional examinations. Then here comes this young dude who comes along and pwns my ass flat. I'm not even sure how should i react upon reading this news. I felt totally steamrollered. In the previous example of the O level chemist, there is at least some form of consolation, coz I did better than a C in O levels so it couldn't be said that the boy is 'superior'.
But in this case, I..don't really want to know what to feel about it.
Then the newspaper report went on to talk about how this dude excels in other aspects of life, like learning other random bullshit that typical Singaporeans stuff into their children.
The more I read, the more pissed I felt. Pissed because I don't really understand what's the point of all these. OK, the boy can go to university now. But what kind of friends would he get? As in, there's this huge age gap of at least 6 years, and I'm quite sure he isn't sexually active enough to bone the university girls right? And even if he is, would the girls accept him? He is that young, underaged, and protected(prohibited) by law. There's no way he could have any form of meaningful relationship with anyone in university, so what is he going to do till then? Push on anyway? Is life all about education?
How is he going to get friends?
I don't know about you, but if I were his age and his friend I'd probably be very weary of his brilliance. It'd be tiring to hang around with someone like that. I don't know. Is it a blessing or a curse?
So, what's the point?
Oh and we're always so caught up in reading about his glamorous life(glamorous in a way, he did make it to the newspapers after all), but what happens after the collection of the results remains a mystery. There's no follow-up on the O level chemist's life, would there be one for this dude?
Would this prompt kids to aim for A levels by 13years old? Do we really want kids to learn this fast?
Had college CIP on Thursday. That's the last day of orientation for the JC1s, and I almost feel sad for them and the impending loss of their identities as they get sucked into AJ's spirit of sucking, until we met VJC. No, it's not any form of self-doubt that made me stop feeling sad for the JC1s, it was when they started doing weird cheers to compete against VJC. I mean like wtf? Uh, get a grip on yourself? Just because you 'know' how to cheer doesn't mean you have to cheer when you see foreign people, just like how just because I have a dick doesn't mean I go around raping people.
But I do. OK, phail example.
Damn malu-ating. Seriously. We were at East Coast Park, and VJC is so damn near ECP. Wtf you don't go to another person's backyard and start peeing all over it and claiming that it's your territory. Even dogs don't do that. Wtf AJC people, wtf.
Which reminds me, AJC loves making students suffer.
CIP on Thursday, and last day of orientation being on a Thursday, would mean that Friday is still a school day. OGLs then have this impending sense of doom, like 'omgwtf a lot of homework to catch up on tomorrow :c'
Normal students like me would also go like 'wtf we do so much shit today then tomorrow still need go school'.
Normal people with common sense would make the decision to have such an activity on Friday, to let students feel better about themselves. Even though the number of school days is the same, at least they would be able to delude themselves and thus make themselves feel better--but no! AJC smacks you right in the balls, and if you're a female, in the eyeballs.
And this whole college CIP shit also showed a very kiasu side of AJC. Every class has a slacky day, otherwise known as CCA day, aka Wednesday. That's because most CCAs are active on Wednesday, and AJC tries to follow one of the simpler rules on student welfare by allowing students to actually have lunch before the start of their CCAs. This is very encouraging, and has been encouraging and remained (only) encouraging for the past year I've been in AJC. But because of the college CIP, the school conveniently swapped the timetable. We had Thursday's timetable on Wednesday instead, because the school suffers from guilt-conscience when there are happy students.
Here is a simple comparison between Wednesday's timetable and Thursday's timetable:
Wednesday: Ends at 1.45PM.
Thursday: Ends at 4.45PM.
Oh I was reading newspapers only because I was waiting to buy my school uniform. Which was a disaster in any way I could think of. I was released from school at 1.15PM so I went over and checked whether there's stock for pants my size or not. None. Was told that new stocks would be arriving at 2.30PM so please wait until then. OK, so I waited until 2.30PM and, like everything AJC stands for, it was late. The van came at 3.15PM.
And upon restocking, I went up and asked for my goods, and as characteristic of AJC, there is nothing my size on the van. They then proceeded to tell me that I should leave my name and phone number down.
Wow, I stayed back for 2 hours just to write down my name. What the fuck. Can't AJC get anything done right? Not even the sale of uniforms? Which truth be told, has a sucky quality to it. My hands have molested many pants(and what lies beneath), so I could discern between the good and bad quality pants. From what I can feel, AJC has the suckiest pants to feel. The texture is all wrong. Fuck my life.
I am OK with sucky colours, I mean, I didn't come to JC to attend a cosplay or something. But having something comfortable to wear is something else.
I'm not being angst-filled because I wasted my afternoon, but I think it's grossly unfair that we place so much faith in the VP's words. She said 'Today is the last day for sales of uniform' or something to that effect. And I thought that was the case hence the rush to get scammed. And I got scammed even more because the Retailers of Sucky Uniform are coming back next week.
Moral of the story: Don't believe what the school administrators say.
Can't AJC stop sucking?
-- 2/06/2010 02:08:00 AM