We always search for things we can relate to when we watch TV. When we can't relate to anything on TV, we switch channels. This way, we think that we live our lives through the actors, and by extension, that we are defining ourselves through the use of characters.
This idolization allows us to feel more self-important, and most people would like to publicize about this sudden feeling of self-worth, and that's when you see stuff like 'I'm quite like X'<--where X stands for some celebrity. Others may compliment that person too. It's boring.
But that's not the point.
I don't see a point in defining ourselves through the use of others. I don't see a point in relating our experiences to the ones on television either. The thing with the media is that there's always something orthodox, and something unorthodox. Most mainstream people follow what's orthodox, and people who are attracting attention follows the unorthodox. I like to think of myself as one who watches but doesn't follow, maybe that's why I was acting like 'Hard Gay' even before knowing what he does.
See, I just compared myself against someone, for the sake of making myself more relate-able to people. Such is how cheap the media has become, that you can't really bring across your point with examples that don't contradict yourself.
I just don't like how people copy wholesale ideas from TV drama serials and live by the codes of conduct as advocated by these shows. It's like asking the magic box(for the slow, read: TV) for advice on one's life. It's pointless, not to mention retarded, because if I want to live life by a certain script, I should be in a TV drama serial.
I'm not in one.
Why should I follow what you think is true? Why makes you think that I should follow what you follow?
'No it's not like that, it should be like this lah, you don't know what's this'<--not like you know any better when you're just blindly following, right dipshit?
TV is a means of wasting your life away, very much like games. But like games, you aren't supposed to be so absorbed that your life values and principles are derived from it.
What you want to define is yourself, and you can't define yourself through TV. Everyone is supposedly unique, and yet the same. Our nuances define us, no matter how small they are. Watching TV and absorbing the morals they incite within us removes said nuances because everyone is then taught to be the same.
What we get from TV is something that most people can relate to, which is, the main point with these slight differences everyone experiences removed. Then everyone who watches it decides that 'Hey, this sounds like me', and they decide to follow because they believe that the script is writing about themselves when it's something generic. But because of a lack of experience in the world, one isn't able to formulate enough thoughts to decide that one is oneself and not a certain storyline of a script, and thus they copy wholesale, forgetting themselves and letting themselves get defined by such programs.
What they seek for is a sense of, for a lack of better form of the word, relation, to know that people out there are actually experiencing the same thing as themselves. Groups are never individualistic in nature, and when these people rally together under the banner of a certain drama serial, they aren't that individualistic either. The price of ridding oneself of a certain lonesome feeling is one's own identity in this case, and most people are willing to forget that they actually have it in them to create their own storyline. And to live it.
It is tiring getting watered down by these mouth-breathing idiots. I get it quite often, it's like another type of religion except worse because I watch TV myself. I don't get their point, they don't get mine, and I hate to see my friends withering.
This all sounds like the Facebook pages that everyone 'Likes', right? Those "'I'm tired'--perfect excuse for being sad" or something along those lines. Seriously, who cares? Everyone knows. By liking it and putting it on your profile page you're telling people to sympathize with you, and so why would you want to come up with the excuse in the first place? It's like giving a rare invitation to everyone to enter your mind, to know how to 'interpret' your behaviour, and then go back to your furtive actions, almost like you're giving a decoder to your friends and then giving them a code for them to use the exact same decoder--POINTLESS.
I'm tired of all these pointless 'News' on Facebook, can we like do without them please? It's taking the individuality out of people. You can carry on being an idiot, like most of the people who use Facebook, but you don't have to publicize the fact that you are one. I want to shut my 'News' off from these fan pages, but I don't mind the funny ones like:
'Don't you hate it when you're swimming in the sea and a shark bites your vagina because it's your period?'
or something like that. That tickled me.
Moral of the story? I'm not too sure either. But why is everyone losing what defines them, and living a mediocre life lived by millions of other like-minded(or lack thereof) people?
I don't exactly enjoy attracting attention. Attracting attention is when you do something just to make people know you're there. I do things whether people are there or not. That's why people think I'm always desperate for attention or something, when I'm just being quite liberal with my actions. I like to scream songs at my friends, whether there are other people around or not. Am I attracting the attention of my friends? Of course. That's what you do when you talk to them, too. When I walk around with my slippers, I don't feel very confident about myself. I'd like to wear shoes and walk around in long pants, but I don't feel comfortable with all that. And I'm not comfortable with my shorts and slippers either, because everyone gives me the 'wtf' look as people don't normally walk around so sloppily. But is that my intention? I don't enjoy the attention people give when they give me the 'wtf' look, I'd rather they go masturbate or do their own thing and leave me alone like how I leave them alone.
It's tiring sticking out. I know. I haven't given up yet.
-- 5/29/2010 07:54:00 PM
RIJGE 2010
Yea that means Raffles Institution Junior College Guitar Ensemble..I think.
I don't want to comment on the music quality, partly(mostly) because I can't, but I do know that I kinda 砸场-ed, because Edward and I were spamming 'WK OIIIIIII~' whenever he made his appearance, and we were participating even in the sing-along session when our voices were hoarse from all the shouting, and what do people with hoarse voices do? They shout even more.
So basically the whole concert was damn high for the 3 of us audiences, but I'm not entirely sure that the other audience around us had the same sentiment or not. We were basically making a fool out of ourselves, and to be honest, I...
...was in school uniform. Complete with a tie. And the tie is Cat High's tie.
We even went to give WK a present each, which means we gave him 2 presents in total, after his solo performance. He was about to walk away, and he couldn't hear us shouting for him to wait up for us to pass it to him on stage, and I was like 'WK DON'T DAO US!!!111!!!' but he did hear us(after reaching the start of the curtains) and he did turn around to accept our gifts.
Very fun.
Very funny, too. The people were laughing at us =\
Once again, let me compare AJ against RJ. During the AJ guitar concert, the emcees kept telling us not to cheer loudly, and when we clapped along THE OTHER AUDIENCE SHUSHED US. During this RJ guitar concert, the students were like clapping along, taking cues, and 2 girls even stood up to do the 'Nobody' dance when the RJGE exco were playing that song.
Says a lot about the quality of students there--they actually know how to have fun.
So anyway the concert was a blast, as usual, and somehow I was shameless enough to blast on even though I was in school uniform. I tend to feel empowered when I'm in school uniform. I always feel that the face I'm throwing with my embarrassing act is that of the school's, and not my own. If I were in civilian clothings I'd be less inclined to Craziness, and that's boring. I always feel exceptionally confident in school uniform, it's like giving me the go-ahead to do crazy stuff.
After the concert, we kept stalking WK and we just kept shouting his name, and I even shouted 'I don't wanna miss a thing' to him, except that instead of 'babe' I go 'WK!', and E joined in. The other E went home already. Welllll it was all fun, at least for the 2 of us.
Then we just kept stalking WK and I think we ended up humiliating WK alot because there was one scene in which I was carrying him on a failed attempt to taupok him and he was flailing about in my arms around 1 metre above ground level, and his friends started cheering us on on our attempt to make him lie down. I think pictures were taken. Would've been more fun that way~
Then we just kept following him until he got on the bus back to RJ, and even then we chased the bus for all our legs were worth, and to be honest they weren't worth much so the 2 of us gave up and went home, tie in tow(for me).
Tiring day.
Cross-country wasn't tiring though, it was a blast! Most of my class guys walked like at least 2.5km off the 4.2km we were supposed to run for. It was like the big walk, except more leisurely. The females kept overtaking us and I felt less potent with each passing girl, but guess what, I'm back in business~
OK to be honest I'm too sleepy to think anymore, good night.
-- 5/28/2010 02:03:00 AM
P5 Camp '10 + Kids run '10.
My legs are aching. Throughout the 35hours of P5 camp, I spent 6/7 of the time walking/standing around because I didn't want to sit down. Of course, this has an unhealthy effect on one's legs, but that's a price I'd pay dearly later on in life when I'm older, but not yet(I hope).
The more you walk, the more painful it gets, and eventually you get numbed and you don't feel the pain as strongly as before.
Which makes me wonder why people are always declaring that they are numbed by stuff, almost as if it's a cool thing to be numb. It's not. It just means that you are in a state of shock.
Doesn't sound that cool now, eh?
Why would people want to brag about how shocked they are?
P5 camp was...like the normal P5 camps we had for the previous year, and to be honest I've got reservations on how they would survive if the Super Seniors(SS) stop going back to help out. But oh well.
The SS were practising the dance from 3-4am, because we had to wait for everyone to sleep before we rehearsed. We didn't want them to know what we were doing because it's
1) embarrassing
2) supposed to be a surprise
and so we had to do it when no one else was awake...
...and ended up having little sleep.
Then campfire came and went, we danced, it's on Facebook:
and yep that's about the highlights of that night.
Then I went home, showered, and went for overnight CIP for Cold Storage's Kids run 2010. There was a LAN session before that though and then we watched Shrek(in which I couldn't help but fall asleep for 20minutes because I was that tired), and blah blah blah.
During the CIP I had sight problems because I couldn't look at stuff properly, and there was a time when I experienced psychosis. I was walking around because if I stagnated I'd sleep, and the people were already moving around(like 8AM), so as I walked around I kinda had a dream and when I woke up I was holding onto a girl's bag by its handle-thingum, with the girl still wearing that bag. Her mother looked at me, slightly bemused, and I let go and walked away slowly, just to not look too sheepish about it.
Hoooooooooops.
OK that wasn't psychosis, that was me being narcoleptic. When I reached home, I checked my Facebook for the aftermath, got amused, ate my lunch, and went to sleep.
Guess what, I'm still damn sleepy.
Oh. Let me be mad for awhile. I was mad on the bus to the F1 pit, and I am still quite mad about it. It's retarded how I got charmed over with just one smile. It's retarded how I always break into song when you walk by. It's retarded how I ache to help you all the time with or without your need of help, even though I barely know you. It's retarded how I'm playing hard to get by not adding you and waiting for you to add me, when I know that you probably won't ever.
And when we walk by next time I'd shy away while you walk on, not knowing that we're acquainted.
Sleep would be good. I don't like intense feelings.
Here are some surveys for females if you're bored enough:
http://www.kwiksurveys.com/online-survey.php?surveyID=KODIOF_8d9d5ade this is for 17-20 http://www.kwiksurveys.com/online-survey.php?surveyID=KOEKIJ_69490278 21-25
Yep. I'm going to like, wank or something. Maybe that'd make my legs feel better. The heel is sore and my toes are going weak. The muscles seem ready to drop off anytime =\
-- 5/23/2010 07:21:00 PM
验孕棒
I don't know whether I'm making a big deal out of this or not, but I feel that not many humans my age have done what I just did, and when I do things which I don't think the general (sane) population have yet to do, I make a big deal out of it. This however isn't like alcohol, because I don't show off that I'm an alcoholic although I just did with this sentence. I am showing off my balls.
I went to Guardian pharmacy just now after school, so I was in school uniform, and upon entering, one of the shop attendants came up to me and the conversation was something like:
'Ah boy ah, 你在找什么?' '验育棒' '噢,在那里'
And then I took 2 pregnancy kits, proceeded to the counter, paid up, thanked them, and left.
It wasn't exhilarating but I kinda realized that the shop attendants didn't give a shit about who bought what from them. It's a good thing though, I mean, if I have a girlfriend and I ejaculated within her I'd be quite embarrassed when buying a pregnancy kit from such shops.
Here's the catch: As long as you don't appear to be embarrassed by what you're buying, you don't seem to have a 'guilty conscience' and people would not exhibit their doubts on your character that openly. Perhaps after I left the shop the 5 attendants were abuzz, wondering
'Why he buy 2 pregnancy kits, he got 2 girlfriend ah? So fertile?'
but maybe I'm thinking too much. I get this feeling that many people buy pregnancy kits anyway, so why do buyers make a big fuss about how embarrassing buying such stuff are? You are, but a customer. Your embarrassment stems from your own knowledge of having done something wrong. Express that embarrassment and people would know that you've really done something wrong.
Here's proof of my balls, complete with receipt.
This would serve as a good birthday present, and it doesn't show that you're a kiam person, because pregnancy kits cost at least 10 bucks (condoms cost like what, 3.70bucks if you're buying Durex). So yep, buying pregnancy kits are useful too in showing that your friend does matter to you, you are worried about his girlfriend's/her pregnancy status, and to be honest it's a thrashy gift, the likes of which you should be giving to each other while you're still young.
I just realized that I don't really have any sense of 'proper decorum', and I understand shit about propriety. I sometimes wonder if this is a bad thing, then I realized that I'm having fun so I move on in life until something jolts this lack of proper decorum/propriety back into my orbit.
During the X-Factor for success talk today, the lard-ass told us to visualize the time when we felt the most successful. You know, close your eyes and recall, that kinda thing, and visualize the time when you did exceptionally well in something and you're lauded with blowjobs and cheers and more blowjobs or something along those lines.
So I closed my eyes and fell asleep, but not before realizing that I don't really have anything to my name and that the only few notions of success I felt throughout my past 17 years was when I levelled up on Runescape.
The lard-ass was telling us about how we should visualize the people around us cheering us on as we went on to claim the prize, and then I thought of the people on Runescape who've all gone missing, scattered even in a virtual world, and I got emo :C
So I fell asleep and decided to buy a pregnancy kit because pregnant people are more hormonal(I guess?) and I was afraid I was pregnant so I bought the kits.
In Life, there are always events. Events happen and affect us and our values. All the time. When I share events with others, I don't like to share the emotional aspect, and how such events affect me as a person. So when I share with people events, it's kinda face value.
I am very selective about my toilets, and I can't shit properly in a toilet I'm not used to. I guess that's because I have a royal behind.
It's tough holding everything back in the rectum while you hobble home only to find that both toilets are used and you're stuck and you keep wishing for the shit to go back in when its head is peeking out and soiling your underwear.
UPDATE: Thanks random tagger for pointing out my typo >.>
-- 5/18/2010 10:27:00 PM
Survivor.
I've been quite bored on Friday nights these few weeks. Actually I'm bored almost all the time, even when I'm online, but studies and homework can never make it to the top of my to-do list, and frankly speaking, my to-do list comprises of only desirable females.
What do bored people do? They watch Survivor.
I find it quite ironic to find a tribe named 'Heroes' in Survivor when the whole game is based on deceit, gaining and the manipulation of trust and people, backstabbing, etc, but what's in a name?
I just find it grossly unfair for Russell, who had played a very interesting, balls-shrivelling game because of his balls. He was kinda true to his word at least, he stuck to playing by his own rules even though he knew that he probably can't get a single vote to win the 1million prize, he knew he'd be hated by everyone, but he still did his thing and stuck to his own values. Hypocrite? I think not. At least he did not bend to what was supposed to be the 'correct' way of playing a game which ethically challenges everyone involved in the game.
It's like playing 'Cheat', you can't blame the opponent for cheating better than you. You're just being a sore loser by doing such a retarded thing. Censure only because you're losing? It's like saying 'Hey you can cheat, but only to the maximum extent of X, where X is defined by me.'
Such hypocrites.
I'm not a Russell defender, I'm just saying that he has been more honest than most of us reading are. None of you(nor I) could face the 'jury' and reply calmly in their eyes that we would stick to our own principles even if it doesn't get us anywhere, even if it makes us get hated.
Villains are good. They aren't as scary as the villains that reside within us. We point and shake our heads at what a morally degraded person others are, but small minds discuss people and we aren't exactly being very morally upright when we badmouth others right?
I've been coming up with lots of random posts lately. I guess this suggests a fragmented state of mind. I need to defragment my brain.
-- 5/18/2010 01:10:00 AM
you don't wear my chains;
I don't get the quarrel over stereotypes and labels. People generally don't want to be given a label, like say, a middle-classed guy does not want to be labelled as a middle-classed guy, so in retaliation against labels, starts acting higher-classed.
So isn't it weird to say that he is fighting labels when he is in fact just trying to 'upgrade' his label?
Of course there are those who are less pretentious and go like 'I do not like my label', which is a subtle nod towards agreeing that he should be given a label but not the current one that he is in. Normally people like this are people who are quite insecure about themselves because they think they don't stand out enough, so they have to act rock/punk/gangstah-rish as they feel that their current label does not give them the popularity they'd prefer to enjoy.
Understandable.
But if everyone tries to jump his label then what's so unique about the rock/punk/gangstah-rish people?
Why are people obsessed with labels in the first place? They claim that they aren't, but they are very much affected by how people view them, so they do drastic stuff to change their labels while always going around like 'Don't label me, I'm not a product'. Such hypocrisy. People want to stand out--by changing labels/brands.
Can't we all just simply shine in our own area? By changing your brand it's like saying you can't shine amongst people of your own brand so you're going to evolve and stay with people in your own brand just to shine, and I think that's quite retarded because you'd be fighting people who have yet to evolve.
Imagine a Charmeleon in the middle of Charmanders and you get the point.
Then there's always women who strive to do better than men. I don't understand feminists. They try to do better than men in the areas men supposedly excel in, like being violent, being dominating, etc. I kinda shiver when I see such people. They're just ultimately making a fool of themselves, and that says a lot coming from me.
I think this way because women are just trying to turn themselves into men, to prove that men are lesser than women. Doesn't this just show that the feminist in question is approving of the stereotype that women are weaker, because she is trying to show that she can do what men can? And by extension, she is saying that what women generally can do is lesser than what men can do because she can only prove that she is better than a man by showing that she can do better than a man in a man's job?
What she can show is that she can do a man's job, but she can't prove that women are better than men as human beings, and that's what feminists are always trying to prove. Yes I know that feminists are trying to push gender equality, but aren't they the ones who are always freaking out and trying to outdo their male counterparts to feel vindicated about some abstract cause of trying to be better than men? Point is, women are competitive, and they are more competitive than men are because they are uptight over their social status, and men are responsible for this.
But why bother proving as long as you know you're better/equal? Men would flip when you simply do your own stuff and not bother about what they have to say about you. By trying to compete with men, feminists are only proving themselves to be more competitive than the rest of the female population, and that they disapprove of the rest of the female population.
Feminists are such selfish people.
CHMA was quite fun. OK, not really. I didn't know most of the people there and not many of my batch mates went back. It was interesting to see the inclusion of females in the line-up of competitors though. I think there were female participants in year 2008, but they didn't get past the auditions. Neither did I of course, but still~
OK I've run out of things to say. I know how people prioritize things and I know I'm never going hit the top of the charts, but...
...I can live with it. We live only once, and I don't want to spend my life wallowing in self-pity.
-- 5/16/2010 10:53:00 PM
'She very alert one.'
I am at my mum's office as usual, when suddenly a lot of her colleagues came in. There was a lot of weirdness involved as I didn't know this bunch of people as well as I know my mum's bunch of friends, and amongst this bunch of people there's supposedly a beauty.
My mum, knowing me, MSN-ed me:
Be careful when you ogle at her, she very alert one.
I had a omg-wtf moment because I wasn't ogling at her at all!!!111!!! I was playing Runescape and as everybody knows, Runescape > Women.
My mum is so cute.(:
Guitar concert yesterday was another blast as all school-based based in schools are, and D was like holding onto a certain gem's hand. It was quite touching and we were all moved to tears...
..of laughter as he tried to explain to us that he wasn't holding her hand at all, hoping that the weight of his words could pull wool over almost the whole class' eyes, and at least 2 video-recordings. Airpic.
I do think I was a bit overboard last night though, the emcees were saying stuff like 'Please refrain from cheering too loudly as it may affect the performers', and I was like 'Performers, am I affecting your performance?' or something along those lines. Yea I know, it was a spur of the moment thing, and quite stupid in retrospect but I was quite riled because the emcee didn't:
1) specify whether it's a positive or negative impact
2) define 'too loudly'
and I never liked to listen to people anyway, and I saw that as an infringement of our rights to express our solidarity to the performer on stage, otherwise known as our classmate.
Of course, there were again the enthusiastic people who kept trying to shush the cheerers down, but they were largely ignored. And WL reminded me to shout bravo, and I forgot to thank her for the reminder :c but I shouted bravo and there were echoes and people shouting other random like-minded words.
I kinda turned things into a fiasco, but I think that's what I paid 5 bucks for and I don't think it affected the rest of the audience(that much).
And when the principal was walking out of the auditorium, she was looking around, probably trying to find out where the source of my voice was coming from and hence identifying me. I hid behind a friend by like shrivelling up in my chair and I hope that was successful. Another alert one.
Here's a quote:
Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, and the small minds discuss people. - Eleanor Roosevelt
I get tired hearing people talk about other people who do not directly affect the spearker's life. Let's say that I met a swindler who went around swindling. He didn't attempt to swindle me, but I was watching him swindle other people. Then I discuss this swindler with my friend, and the conversation revolves around the swindler:
Why he so like that? Must be no morals. Why no morals leh? Must be bad family upbringing. So how? Don't know. I am very disappointed in such people. Can't he get a life?
And stuff like that. People actually discuss about people and not what these people represent. The moral decay part grazes the surface of issues: Singapore's moral degradation, but the aforementioned conversation falls short of a deeper discussion of Singapore's society as it is.
Why do people enjoy talking about people? Is it the only topic at hand? And does discussing 'ideas' make us seem more sophisticated than the rest who are still 'stuck at' discussing people and issues? Who defines what? Isn't Eleanor Roosevelt also, in a way, discussing people when she made that quote? Isn't she trying to discriminate between the supposed great minds and the average ones? By saying that people who discuss people have 'small minds', isn't she in a way reflecting the fact that she also has a small mind?
What is her point in making that quote then, if she's not trying to self-suan? I just find discussions on humans boring, especially if these discussed humans do not directly revolve in my life or the speaker's. Why would I care about a random person who
1) doesn't evoke any feelings from me
2) doesn't directly affect a friend's life.
It's boring hearing people judge the moral values of other people. I judge people by their level of interestingness. If you're interesting, you're good. If you're not, you're boring and you should go away before I fall asleep due to your droning. This probably means that I'd always top the charts in my judgment, and you won't.
Yawns. I am bored. I am going to sleep now. CHMA here I come.
-- 5/15/2010 01:51:00 AM
Check back 10 years for now, I am right.
For fear of ridicule I will not post in Chinese even though I feel like it.
There's the recent hooha over the supposed reduction in Chinese weightage for PSLE, and in all the news reports I've read(and to be honest, I don't read a lot), it's about a growing population of English-speaking families going around trying to reduce Chinese's importance in PSLE as their kids don't know their mother tongue well, probably due to parents' negligence or something.
The point theses parents are trying to make is: Our children are better in English, so they would be more successful because English is like an international language and has more speakers compared to Chinese. Because of this advantage we're endowing our children with, we feel that the education system should be more forward-looking and reduce the weightage of Chinese because otherwise our children cannot shine in an unbiased system.
And because of this small group of people who are perceived to be elites, the government already has plans on Change in the education system:
Politicians, being politicians, push the timeline back so that people of now will be more appeased. It's a psychological move, really. It's like asking for sex. If I have a girlfriend now, and I ask to have sex 2 months into the relationship and get my advance spurned, all I have to do is to lay-off the topic for a few months and then go back and say something like 'I respected your decision then, now you should respect ours and let's have the relationship going my way' or something similar.
The girlfriend would feel more obliged to give in because of the supposed patient wait, and to be honest I think the government is just biding its time, because the trend of English-speaking families is going up, and if there are more English-speaking families around than Chinese ones, there'd be less resistance to this change.
Then they can change it without much opposition. Singaporeans don't normally bother with things unless things bother them immediately. Like, if the government does something like demanding every computer to be installed with certain devices to, say, stop people from watching porn, all the porn-watchers would make noise because it's something close to heart.
And in this case, Singaporeans are worried about their own children because their children studied Chinese religiously, why should the system bend to the demands of a few English-speaking families who are too damned lazy to study their own mother tongue? This public ire was fueled largely because of this selfish reason I think.
When I have kids, I will make sure they learn their Chinese well. I will speak Chinese to my wives and husbands and make sure they reply in Chinese or else they get raped(which means they'd probably not speak Chinese at all since they like getting raped by me, so rape isn't rape as defined by the dicktionary). But yea the point is that I won't force my kids to learn Chinese as in the kind of sit-there-until-you-finish-your-comprehension kind, but the you-don't-get-food-if-you-don't-speak-Chinese kind.
Kids should be brought up with many rods in your hands.
Now, we wait for a few more years before they broach this topic and successfully changes it because Singapore isn't as much of an egalitarian society as we hoped for.
-- 5/11/2010 10:09:00 PM
Air-conman.
The air-conditioner is one of the weirdest invention of Man. We switch on the air-conditioner, and we put on jackets/more clothes to insulate ourselves against the cold of the air-con. We want blankets on ourselves so that we won't be too cold.
So why bother conditioning the air with the air-con then? We give ourselves a good condition to hibernate due to the cold, then we use blankets to make ourselves feel warm.
Why not just skip the air-conditioner and the blanket altogether?
Also, air-conditioners use a lot of electricity. So it contributes greatly to the not-so-abstract concept of 'global warming'. The Earth heats up, making the need for air-conditioners ever more dire. So we use even more air-conditioners, and global warming worsens. The Earth heats up even more, and the cycle continues.
Like, wtf? Why not skip the air-conditioner altogether? Return us our cool temperature please. I think there was a time when Singapore's natural average temperature was 25 degrees celsius. Now it's...what? The balls-sweating temperature. It makes me melt and makes my balls sweat perpetually. Largely thanks to the air-conditioners.
The greatest irony--I thank the air-conditioners ford cooling me down. I thank divine powers whenever I get into an air-conditioned room. Humans are so weird I don't know how to describe them/me.
Air-conditioners are such a scam.
-- 5/09/2010 10:56:00 PM
Happy birthday BKB (:
Friday was a blast. I got to rape 3 classmates(I smeared my balls on one's chest, while I rode one in the L4D-Hunter position, me being the hunter of course, and I had a chest-to-chest hip-thrusting sex position with me on top).
One of them was the birthday boy, happy birthday BK (;
And another was traumatized so I sent him a message later on at night. I am a responsible rapist.
After that I went back to my primary school for some P5 camp briefing. It was weird because the senior mentors(meaning the old birds) were to facilitate the mentors on some ice-breaking games. I am bad at interacting with groups of people.
And I was given a bunch of girls I don't know at all =.=
So yea that wasn't exactly damn fun but the kids are cute anyway. As in the younger mentors. Some really caught my eye but that's not the point.
I went off halfway to attend AJ's harmonica concert. It was a blast. I like the conductor. He was cute so I decided to shout his name. And BK sang 'I don't wanna miss a thing' so when the concert ended I shouted it to him and it was a damn shameless thing to do and I could feel myself blushing but I was high and couldn't give a shit.
Then I lost my voice and I was high so I went to sing 'Only One' to J:
Here I go Scream my lungs out Trying to get to you
And J was dao-ing all along. Quite reflective of how my efforts to get people on my side always fails. I don't know why but I just can't get people to view things the same way I do. Are my views that extreme or that ideal? Is there something wrong with my perspective? Should I change my perspective so that I won't have to be pissed about how people are not viewing things the same way as I do? Or do I want to continually stick out like a sore thumb and expect people to accept me the way I am?
It's tiring being pissed with everyone and everything because they aren't going the way I think they should be going.
I was on the bus home just now. I always take 86. And quite often I see my primary school friend. I'm not sure if he's my primary school friend but yea, he looks like my primary school friend and he's in the school my primary school friend is in and he stays in the same area as my primary school friend.
He doesn't find me familiar at all though and I saw him with a girl once. Just once.
So after dinner with my classmates I boarded the bus at around 11PM. Then he boarded. And fell asleep. And at the stop he's supposed to alight he didn't manage to wake up, so I tapped him.
His flustered reaction was quite epic.
He just woke up, looked around wildly, realized that he's not at the interchange but got roused by someone he doesn't know, wonders 'Wtf how does he know where I stay?' and contemplated sitting and not appearing affected by my tapping of him because he doesn't want me to know that I'm correct, before conceding that his bed and early-reaching of his home should be prioritized and alighted, no questions asked.
He didn't look at me after that. Think he got quite scared.
So yep. I guess I did change a lot since primary school. And with things now as they are it seems like I'm on the verge of another change.
And couldn't you have waited till I said good night?
-- 5/08/2010 02:35:00 AM
Harry Potter and his Mid-Life Crisis.
Before I start, let me declare this: I am a boor and I don't see a reason to wrap this up in ribbons.
My definition of art and the average human's definition of art could be quite different.
We were at the AJC Chinese Orchestra concert on Saturday, and after they performed the first piece for the night everyone started clapping. Duh, it's customary to clap. And recalling what Ms. Leong said on Thursday morning, she said something to the effect of:
Don't shout peoples' names. If you really need to shout something, shout 'BRAVO' after a piece. That's respect for the rest of the audience, which may consist of the public, and the performers themselves.
Yep, something along those lines. I'm thinking I grasped the essence of what she said, and frankly speaking, I don't agree with it.
But I went along with it, and as the applause from the general public faded, I exclaimed 'BRAVO'. I was just following what Ms. Leong said--I shouted what she expected me to shout. That's why I was perplexed when people around me started laughing, and my friends started shying away.
Why are they laughing, and why are my friends shying away? I was just following orders...in a innocuously satirical way, and unfortunately humans managed to see past my masked intentions.
Like, WHO THE FUCK SHOUTS 'BRAVO' IN A CONCERT? In all my years of watching such performances, people
1) Clap very loudly
2) Scream
3) Catcall
4) Shout names
but never have I heard anyone shouting 'Bravo', or 'Fabulous', 'Marvellous', 'Splendid', 'Awesome', etc. There's no such precedent until I came into the picture.,
Really, is there a standard way of appreciating classical music? I keep quiet when they play their pieces, I don't SMS(that much) when they are performing, I pay attention to them, and although I don't understand most of what's going on or when they screw up, I marvel at their talents. They really remind me of how my hands are only useful for wanking. That's my way of appreciating their form of art. I don't really give a shit about abstract stuff like 'ambiance'. By keeping quiet and simply clapping, are members of the public/you going to be able to feel the next performance better? Would your hearing be enhanced in a way that name-shouting cannot aid in?
Like I said, I'm a boor. I can't tell a guzheng from a drum, except by name. So I appreciate their music my way, that is, only appreciating when they are actually performing.
On Friday night, I went for the RJ CO concert. It was entirely different. I can't really tell the difference between Gold and Gold with Honours, but I can tell a drastic difference between the levels of liveliness in the audience.
The RJCO audience were lively. They were shouting names all the way, until the conductor steps into the stage. Did it impair my ability to appreciate the RJCO's music? No. In fact, I was liberated by how lively the audience is, that is, I know that they are actually alive and capable of speech rather than just the repetitive movement of slapping their hands together(hard).
If the students of one of the most prestigious junior colleges in Singapore are given the liberty to be that crazy, why are students from Average Junior College not allowed to shout the names of their friends?
By the way, I only attended the RJCO concert because my friend who was performing asked me to. He told me 'SHOUT MY NAME AH!'
I told him that he'd have to let me bite his nipples, and he told me 'X.x when we alone can?! Don't leave bite marks if not someone would be jealous!' or something to that extent.
He effing asked me to pay 10 bucks to shout his name, and enjoy his music. Note the prioritizing of the 2 points in the sentence immediately before this.
That's why I came to the conclusion that performers FEED ON the attention of the audience. Name-calling thus serves as a motivation for the performers to work harder and better during the performance as they know that their friends are out there, rather than formless vague-sounding applauses. Of course, some may argue that it takes the focus out of the orchestra as a whole but seriously it only affects the less-popular members of the orchestra as they wouldn't have people shouting their names for them, and to be honest no one really cares about such low-profile people.
So yea, my point here is--If RJC are students allowed to shout the names of their friends why can't AJC students? And why are we trying to distinguish ourselves from other students?
Do we really need to listen to what everything our principal says? Just because she said that we shouldn't shout doesn't mean that we can't. In fact it's a societal norm to shout names of your friends as a sign of support. So why are we stopping just because she said we should? Note that my tone is still quite level/respectful, slightly incredulous-ed but not blatantly disrespectful yet.
I don't get it. I've been shouting for the past few years in every concert I've attended, so why should I stop because she said so? I saw a few ex-Cat High people(now in other JCs) and they came to support Yong Khang. They shouted his name and so did I. We got 'SHHHHHHHH'-s from the audience....
...and other people liberated by my balls started shouting names too.
Why are we always trying to distinguish ourselves from others? Does keeping quiet and merely clapping set us apart from the other people? I take it that people are simply trying to act 'high-classed' by sitting on their chairs with their hands clapping away and shush-ing while getting pissed off by the supposed immature behaviour of teenagers such as myself.
I am a boor. I act like one. I am not going to sit around trying to act civilized.
Yea I know I am embarrassing, but I'm just doing what I normally do. I don't normally get affected by what people say about me. And by doing so, I normally end up making my friends feel humiliated. Here's the perfect way to stop people from thinking that the person who is shouting is your friend: Look around 'searching' for the source of the shouts, while not looking embarrassed. That way people would think that you're with the perpetrator. The more embarrassed you look the more embarrassed you'd get ahahahahahahaha
I won't stop because people tell me to. Unless there are like death threats or physical violence, to which I'd then retort 'Violence makes you very artistic meh'.
I'd love to hear her speak about this again.
And to be honest, I don't mean to shout just to attract attention(though it remains quite an interesting factor). I do it to support my friends on stage, because I was taught that doing so makes them feel more appreciated. Should my friends not want their names to be shouted, or respond negatively when their names are publicly announced by a boorish(but sexy) voice, I would stop.
So far there's no one unsubscribing from my services.
And...yea I understand that people do feel humiliated in my presence, because besides having a huge dick I've got balls of steel endowed with the ability to procreate. But...yea. I won't stop because they ask me to, for they aren't the ones performing and they don't really understand my way of appreciating such music.
As for the people who kept going 'SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH', I find that they are idiots. They are the kind of people that laps up everything their governing body throws at them without wondering if what they are told is viable or not. In this concert, after my trend-setting(yes I did start the fire), 3 types of people surfaced:
1) Some joined in to shout their friends' names. Probably because they realized that should anything happen it'd ultimately be my fault--they don't have the balls to start anything themselves.
2) Some appreciated my balls but kept quiet throughout. Probably due to their own lack of balls to join in something they deem 'illegal'.
3) Some tried to shush type 1. I think they're still having the primary school prefect-wannabe sentiments, meaning cock suckers of any governing body they are under.
But to be honest I was really just going around doing my own thing. It's like...even if every guy stops wanking, I won't. I'm not asking everyone to wank, I'm just asking everyone to leave me alone when I wank.
By the way, type-3 people are prevalent in AJC. Really, AJC brainwashes people into stupidity. I remember there was this Q & A session mass mass civics session in which we had a guest speaker from the government. I forgot who that was, but he was from Cat High(the CHS people cheered when that was announced), and during the Q & A session, some dude who was supposedly damn zai in GP appeared to ask a question.
Everyone waited with bated breath because they were hoping for a mind-rape session by...an A level student on a skilled, mature politician.
The question asked was something to the effect of 'How much resources should Singapore invest in the research of Energy(or power, I forgot, it's all the same anyway), in relation to the amount of resources Singapore is investing on R & D?'
Guess what?
The whole auditorium erupted with claps and cheers, because it was a 'cheem' question. Was that the cheering then a show of solidarity, or plain stupidity? I don't see what's so cheem about the question because it was kinda crappy, and I don't see why people were wow-ed over in the first place. Was it the way the dude phrased it? Anyway the point is--AJC isn't filled with smart people. I'm glad this rotting effect hasn't gotten to me. Or at least I don't think it has...yet.
Anyway, here's a random picture I took while waiting for K to come out from the concert hall. Presenting to you--Harry Potter and his mid-life crisis:
which really reminds me of how fast youthfulness leaves us and how we should live it to its fullest by making fools out of ourselves as much as possible, as long as we enjoy it, because...