不是你太单纯,是别人太复杂
Children normally live in their own world, and they invite others to their world easily. It could be an imaginary space, their playground, their own room. It could be anything, because they don't know how to guard themselves, because they don't see the need to guard themselves.
And then we grow old, strive to become more complicated than the others around us because we're always threatened, or at least feel threatened by other humans around us, and thus we see the need to protect ourselves by being more complicated, sophisticated, just to put ourselves in a position higher than the others because that would allow us to see clearer and be able to protect ourselves.
Is being complicated and over-protective of yourself good? Is it really important to be sophisticated? Is there a point in sophistication if it cuts you off from a lot of other stuff that you could otherwise be injoying yourself with?
I've always loved the innocence of kids. No, I am not a paedophile, I just like playing with kids a lot because they never fail to amaze me with their naivety and energy.
Then I take a step back and wonder 'Why do I even want to play with them when I first have to get them to trust me?' and I realized that the challenge in becoming their friend isn't that hard, but it's still thrilling to know that you have access to a kid's private space. I like it a lot. I don't really know what I'm talking about and I should be sleeping. But I just like to play with children omg they are so fun.
They are always running around, and simply running around chasing after everyone, and perhaps ganging up(I often get chased by a group of kids because I am so hot) amuses them to no ends somehow. They have fun, they enjoy life, we share joy in enjoying their lives with them.
We don't have fun, we don't enjoy life because we don't dare to, because people would be jealous if we do, and we don't share our lives with others because we don't know what others would do.
Is being sophisticated that important? Doesn't certain random childish act of your friends make your day(at times)? What happened to people who would go up to the bubble tea shop auntie and say '给我一杯忘情水‘ a few years later?
Would they have changed?
Who is really getting shortchanged by Life?
向日葵的约定 is a nice show. My mum managed to stay up till 11 just to watch it. She has never been able to watch a show till its end because she always falls asleep halfway, but
Singapore productions ftw.
-- 12/27/2009 11:06:00 PM
How to destroy a school.
So Christmas ended quite fruitfully, as in the family gathering was good. And then it was yesterday, Saturday, and much moping ensued.
Retests: Next Monday and Tuesday.
I didn't prepare well. I just hope I could scrape a pass. Seriously. Two 45/100. Tolong. And I'd be rid of this bullshit.
I hate AJC. I hate it because given me results, it's bad enough to be in the group A-D list, but not bad enough to be in the group B list. I'm only missing one fucking mark to be clear of any of these lists in the first place, but if the teachers are oblivious to it, I have nothing to say.
I mean, well, if they count a student's 44 marks as 45 marks, then students with 43 marks should also be counted as 44 marks, and they would whine even more and thus get 45 marks.
The vicious cycle goes on, and so adding of marks didn't ensue. What to do? Can't do nuts anyway.
But what I really don't understand is why I'm not in group A and instead in group B, which has to do retests. I have nothing to say if it's really a teacher who sabo-ed me, because I'm really a slacker through and through. But even then, I should be resigned to my fate as a person who has to take retests.
I am OK with being labelled as a person who is nearly slated for retaining. I mean, I would love to be rid of this prestigious title, but what can I do? I have no way out.
Education is such that everyone has to survive and study hard and survive and study hard and study even harder to survive against those who study hard. I'm not the diligent kind, and I'm not whining about the lack of resolution in my bones, because it's a system that works, and a system that's easy to work out. Why bother changing the entire system such that the entire student population benefits? It's impossible to believe that such a thing would become a reality, because 'studying is itself a rite of passage', and it's too troublesome to change a system when the price is only unhappiness. And perhaps a few lives due to stress. No one gives a shit about those poor stressed-out and suicided students, because they have effectively eliminated themselves from this vicious food chain. It's not exactly a bad thing either. And a system which works for majority of the student population who have learnt the game rules would not be changed for the really small numbers of suicidal students.
Life's like that. Suck on it.
Like in authoritative countries. They all have a system which works. They develop well and fast. Look at Nazi Germany. Germany became very strong in a few years shortly after all the shit it had to pay for war damages in WW1. Because there's only one ruler, Hitler, and with less democracy and human rights there's more efficiency and effectiveness in policies and industrial schemes implemented by the authoritative government.
Do you really think that Democracy exists? It's impossible to think that happiness, human rights, freedom, etc, all these random abstract human emotions and ambitions, they count for naught as they are personal and individualistic in nature. Such people are not worthy of his/her country's attention, because why should the country, or governing body, bend its rules or go out of its way just to satisfy said abstract human ideals?
Everyone wants to do things their way. In a government, there are many parties, and within each party there are many people. Duh. If one party wants to do one thing its way, all the parties in the government would clash and want things done specifically in their way.
Democracy is when these parties reach a common consensus and are able to compromise, and strike a deal to do a certain thing in a certain way.
How long does it take for the many people who form the numerous party to reach a common ground for the one single government?
Democracy is really just an ineffective way to govern any country. It's just a name that is normally associated with the aforementioned human ideals, and just to scam people into voting for the party. Who wouldn't want to enjoy power alone?
Why am I even talking about governing bodies and the like?
Because even in schools it's the same. I'm finally getting to the main point which I did not further elaborate on just now.
Why I hate AJC.
It's because every school is authoritative.
This is a governing system which can be found in most schools:
The Principal > Vice Principal > HODs > Tecahers > Student council + students.
Of course, there's always the school board of directors or something, but I'm really not sure where they fall under.
So the principal decides on something, the vice principal announces it and perhaps tweaks it abit, passes it on to HODs and they in turn pass on to the teachers, and you get the flow.
So in the case of this retest, the principal explicitly stated that the dates would not be changed. Even if you're sick, in the hospital, you're supposed to give a call and take the RETESTS in the hospital itself. In short, there's no escaping 28th 29th Dec 2009 for the 100+ retest students.
Isn't it retarded? Retests is like promos, I have a classmate who ponned the whole week of promos and he still got to sit for the promos eventually. He got to sit for the same papers some more, so he already knows what's going to hit him.
Fair?
And really, the reason the principal stated for having this set, iron-cast rule that the retests be dated 28th 29th Dec and not changeable, is that it's a 'training for A levels', because in A-levels, if you miss a paper, you missed the paper. Take again next year.
What the fuck? What the fuck? Does it even sound sane, that such a thing requires 'Training'? If I so happen to fall down a week before A-levels and like break my left hand(choy ah), what can I do about it? The lapse in logic is so appalling I can't even begin to barf.
I do understand that teachers need their breaks, and by having this iron-cast dates, students come back for their retests, teachers also only have to come back once to invigilate, etc.
I am a reasonable man. I know that teachers need their breaks too, and that the college is 'doing us a favour' by even giving us a second chance to take our retests.
But don't make it sound so selfless. 'This is training for your A-levels.' What the fuck.
I have this extended family trip to Genting. It may not sound like much, but the tickets were ordered before the release of the promo results. And it's with my extended family. Which means that my grandparents, and basically the whole of my mother's side of the family, would be going. And I'm the only person in my generation(of 10 kids) who is unable to attend. There's actually another cousin who cannot go because she has motion sickness, but I don't have motion sickness. I am a 'can't go because of fucked up retests' case.
I don't get to spend time with my family.
I don't get to enjoy holidays as much because there are times when this nagging feeling that I've still got retests resurface.
I feel this regret that I cannot accompany my family on this trip.
I feel that this would be a lifelong regret because such a trip was never organized before.
I just hope they organize something similar next year such that I can go.
But even if they did organize something next year I'd still feel that 'Fuck, I missed last year's.' Kids grow up fast, really, and one year could change kids a lot. For example, I used to be able to carry one of my toddler cousins. But she grew up, and now she wants to talk instead of being carried. And because she can recognize people already, she doesn't allow me to carry her. I remember I had to coax her into letting me carry her. =\
They are setting off this morning, 7AM or something. I felt it since Saturday night, that I really would regret not being able to go for this outing. Really. Fuck my life.
AJC is taking away all this from me. I understand their rationale, but I understand my own emotions too. Just because this governing system works, and just because I'm resigned to fate of retests DOES NOT MEAN that I would live happily with the thought of retests. In short, it just means that I have to suffer silently, though it's not that silent since I'm blogging about it. Wonder what could happen should any teachers read this.
But then again, what can they do? Between a student's reputation and the school's reputation, they'd rather keep things in check and not blow things up, which could be done by a simple phone call to SPH XinMin Daily. Any gossip that is detrimental to their reputation should be avoided at all costs, so I hope they won't bother with me. Coz I'm not sure of how I'd respond to this threat either. I WILL bite back. I have nothing to lose.
AJC. Stay away from it.
I had this weird idea a few weeks back. It was 'How to destroy a school'. I was thinking that if I were influential enough, I could perhaps stop this year's sec4s from enrolling into AJC because of my wide(non-existent) network of friends. And then AJC would have to close shop because it doesn't have a J1 intake. Then the torture ends at my batch.
Think it'd work? It's very extreme and completely impossible to achieve though.
-- 12/27/2009 02:55:00 AM
Decorations: Waste of money.
Don't really get all this hype about Christmas. They waste money putting up Christmas decorations all over the place,
then take them off,
then puts up Chinese New Year decorations,
then takes them off,
then puts up whatever-other-occasion-there-is decorations,
then takes them off.
And then it's back to Christmas, and the cycle repeats.
It's such a waste of money. Does it make you happier? People walk on the streets to walk on the streets and not look at decorations hanging on trees. You suck money from such people when they enter shopping malls to buy stuff.
Some people drive cars all the way to Orchard Road to view such decorations.
You don't earn money from them. Unless you're talking about ERP.
Why bother putting up such superfluous bullshit? You don't earn money from them, they don't normally get appreciated much, and even if they get appreciated there's no real difference in their presence/absence.
But they happy.
I just..don't really get the meaning of this occasion, this whole 'Merry Christmas' thing. That's why I won't bother to actively SMS people telling them 'Merry Christmas, hohoho, a fat red man will be gifting you a present from me, etc'. Because I don't believe in Christmas, because I'm not an Angmoh, because I'm not a Christian. But if people spam me on MSN I'd reply courteously.
I mean, it'd be even more lonely if you're totally neglected by your friends too. Imagine everyone else having SMSes wishing them a Merry Christmas, while your phone stones as if off-ed. That is sad.
But besides this consolation factor, how much more can I relate to the 'magic of Christmas'?
Can't really.
But I always dread Christmas, because my mother will always ask our relatives to come to our house(small house), and the place would be crowded, people are oft found standing because of a lack of chairs and space to put available chairs, my room would be defiled, noise would be made, sleep would be deprived, etc.
But I'm still OK with this, because it's family time and I like family bonding. What I don't like is when my mum asks her own friends over, some time after Christmas(that's why I don't like Christmas, it's like a prelude to disaster). I don't know her friends, and I don't know their kids.
And I don't want them in my room. I need my privacy. I mean, I don't have porn in my room except for a certain magazine, hidden in a weird folder like compartment from my bag, which was flown in from Japan by someone(coughs LLJZ coughs).
I just want to be left alone.
I don't really enjoy having weird, relatively unknown people in my house. I treat my house as like a place where I can hide in and not bother with strangers because I don't like dealing with strangers. It's a place that shouldn't be defiled by anyone, not even my friends, because I like my privacy. Why should other family members disturb me in my reverie with their friends?
Sometimes, I wake up to hear the dreadful drawl of mahjong tables and mahjong tiles cracking. It'd be my sis, and her friends, playing mahjong in the afternoon. And that day would be disrupted, because I'd be confined in my room, because it'd be weird for me a grown man to walk out to the living room populated by 4 women. I have to eat my lunch on my room table, I have to koupe my sister's laptop because the desktop is in the living room, life in that day becomes terrible.
That's why I don't invite people to my house, because that'd disrupt my sister's life if she's at home. See how considerate I am, I am so much better than my sister.
But really, I just kinda need my privacy. And I have to play a good host because no one wants to attend a party greeted by glum people.
And here's to WK:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-r6FPEghwFc
An Eason song for the festive season.
-- 12/25/2009 04:06:00 AM
Constants.
Everyone needs a constant in their lives. Some people find that constant in God, some people find it in their families, some find it in their work, some find it in their friends, some find it in alcohol, some find it in drugs, some find it in sex, some find it in tobacco, some find it in
Runescape.
[Advertisment]: Runescape. Play it now.
But really, everyone needs a constant in their lives to deal with the inconstancy in Life. But even the constants change from time to time.
Like, what if Runescape falls?
What am I left with then?
Can anyone survive without a constant in his life?
Are constants really needed?
-- 12/24/2009 03:34:00 AM
That's why I'm afraid.
There are times when your self-esteem gets demolished because you pale in comparison to a contender.
You would've seen this many times in Drama serials: Guy has a bicycle and Girl always sits on his bicycle(or rides with him on the bicycle if you like the more suggestive version of something innocent), Guy 'developed feelings' for Girl, and finally decides to risk their friendship for something more intimate. So, to prepare for The Moment, Guy polishes his bicycle. Then, Guy rides his bicycle to meet Girl, was about to get off to walk to Girl's house, but was confronted by...
Rich Guy! Rich Guy steps out carelessly from the car after his chauffeur opens his door, because rich people don't want to dirty their hands on stupid pointless stuff like doorknobs or whatever it's called when it's on a car(oh. handle?), and invites Girl to his house for a long ride in his car, to which Girl accepts gratefully because she has never taken a long ride in a car before.
So, as compared to the Rolls-Royce, the ride on a bicycle PALES IN COMPARISON.
So Guy doesn't have a choice but feel emasculated.
If you're thinking that something similar happened to me, you're right. But not in the romantic sense.
Last Thursday night, before sleeping, I made a mental note to bring my GBA charger and more cartridges for my cousin to play, because he asked for more cartridges when I went to my Ahma house on Tuesday.
So I decided that I had to entertain him, he is my cousin after all.
Then on Friday, after waking up, I made this conscious, strenuous effort to select games for him. OK I just took a bunch and stuffed them into my bag, but I was conscious anyway.
Then I went over.
Then I was about to take them out when I was greeted with the sight of a -gasps- NDS.
Something as ancient as a GBA SP should not be brought out to face its newer, sexier, cousin.
At that moment, besides feeling very depressed because I'm so outdated, I was thinking:
Fuck Nintendo.
=\
Sometimes there are things so personal or inappropriate to express in public, but you don't know what to do with them. You are affected, but you think you're able to carry on with Life as per normal, even though your perceptions on it has been radically changed. But you're not supposed to show that you're affected, because that'd be an 'expression', and it's too inappropriate to express to others.
It wasn't traumatic. It only happened 3 days back, but memories of it are already clouded. Perhaps the mind's way of working, perhaps a form of denial, perhaps you just don't want to face it. I try to recall, but it's not vivid enough. It's there, it can't be removed.
I kinda regret it. I was sleepy at that time. This sleepiness because of my weird sleeping hours numbed me. It should have been more intense, but it wasn't because I lagged. I couldn't take in the whole situation that well. What's the point of my presence then? Could I have afforded comfort?
Did I?
It's even worse when you're perfect, because perfect people aren't supposed to be fallible, and they won't show signs of cracks.
That's why I'm afraid.
-- 12/21/2009 09:48:00 PM
It's a curse to be brilliant.
I think that dealing with people is a very tiring thing to do. There are times when you have to appear interested in whatever they have to say even when you're damned bored by what they have to say, and having to reject them in the kindest way possible because that's the most EQ way of doing things. You want some time alone, but they keep bugging you, so you accommodate. Your life is spent pleasuring other people and when you want to indulge in some...self-pleasure, you have to come up with many excuses and reasons and push the other people who needs you to pleasure them away in the most civil way possible, but sometimes that's not possible so you end up not having any time alone to wank in the toilet.
That is just sad, but that's not the point of my post today.
So I was thrown a youtube video of Paramore, because they are coming to Singapore for a concert..right? And my friend was telling me about how orgasmic the band is when I informed him that with my limited knowledge on English bands I know that there's a female in Paramore, and I added that she probably would feel weird that a fan finds her 'orgasmic'. So he showed me a song, and I had to regretfully inform him that even though the voice is good(or so it seemed to me), I...
can't hear through the accent. Really. It's quite a troubling issue actually. Troubling because a lot of shows are made by angmohs and those shows are usually action-packed, because I like violence/comedy more than those lovey-dovey kinda thing. So in the case of a violent movie, it'd have to be action-packed, because violence is an action(duh), and because it's action-packed and full of angmohs talking I am usually stuck with...
reading the subtitles. And when I'm stuck with reading the subtitles I don't know what's going on, even after the violence commences.
So much for 8bucks. I'd rather play 4hours of LAN, at least L4D has the subtitles to give you stuff like [Incoming attack] or [Jockey alert]. How decent of them. And in L4D you at least have a chance of creating history. In a way. Because you're the player, you survive, you do good, you have the sense of satisfaction only a gamer can derive. So healthy.
Speaking of L4D, I realized that I'm actually quite a bad gamer. Bad because I tend to become rather overbearing when it comes to games. I think it's quite normal for people to shout stuff like
HUNTER HUNTER
when a hunter pounces on them.
It's like shouting for help, of course you expect people to help get the hunter off you. So I shout and I normally shout damn loud, because I have powerful lungs meant for sucking dicks. That's normal, in fact I'm quite proud to be able to shout so loudly to ask for help.
The problem kicks in only when help doesn't arrive. I start looking around and if a friend isn't alert enough, probably stoning or SMS-ing because he thought everything was safe, I get pissed. And then I MIGHT shout at that poor dude. Or I'd just start complaining because my teammates aren't fast enough in rescuing me.
Then relations start to sour. OK not exactly sour, but really, it's just a game. I have to learn to take it easy because if not prolonged shouting and emotional abuse on people who are your friends whom you have a bone to pick IN A VIRTUAL WORLD might make you lose your real-life friends. Is there a point in playing then?
People play LAN for FUN, not the alliance but for fun, and if you get pissed with your friends because of something which was played for fun, it kinda(really) defeats the purpose right?
And being the overbearing person I am, I hereby declare myself clinically(I run a clinic. Really.) unfit for L4D and related games, so if you want to play with me please be aware that I shout and might get a bit abusive during the course of the game. And sorry if I've already shouted at you or something.
It's a curse to be brilliant. Sigh. =\
S6 is finally inaccessible. This just means that the server has restarted, and everything that I've worked for is officially gone and cannot be seen anymore. I took screenshots of my villages, and although all those would count for naught, I do think of my villages as my children and now at least I have pictures of my children to show my grandchildren next time.
-- 12/18/2009 03:47:00 AM
You just self-owned.
There are some people who think that they own it all because they are able to point out something rather retarded. I randomly add guys at times, and sometimes I get bullshit-people like the below:
Jay Yeo:
in the information age, there are simply too many channels available for people to stalk. outrightly adding people to stalk is plain stupid, you could have added a personal message of "for pet society/castle age/mafia wars/cafe world" for added believability. anyway it's an interesting social experiment of over 1k people, could make for a good campaign evaluation. good day.
about an hour ago · Comment · Like · See Wall-to-Wall
Obviously he's pissed about something. Commenting on someone's social experiment and dubbing it as 'plain stupid' isn't something very wise to do, especially if you don't know that person at all. I mean, you don't know a person, you don't know exactly what his motives are, and you say he's 'plain stupid' just by an action alone.
He's retarded. He even contradicted himself, because he claims(knows) that it's a social experiment. In an experiment, there are variables that could be changed or kept constant. And if I really did put in that personal message I would've defeated the purpose of the account in the first place, which is that the RECIPIENT of the friend request DOES NOT KNOW the SENDER(me) at all, and the purpose of my adding the RECIPIENT is completely unknown to the RECIPIENT. Saying that I'm adding only for Mafia wars would dilute this sense of bewilderment at some random guy adding you. Not to mention if the person's Facebook username is really weird, and spells the person's weird tendencies to the max.
So I fired back.
Me:
responding to the add request positively isn't the most intelligent thing to do either. the aim of this account is to gauge just how unguarded people of this information age are. so...yeah.
also, there's no need to add those personal messages because it's supposed to be a social experiment as you rightly pointed out. putting in those personal messages would defeat the purpose.
2 seconds ago · Delete
I hope he gets the point and that this wouldn't escalate into a flame war, because he has already pissed me off.
And like I said, I seem to have pissed him off by gracing him with my friend request, so I shall piss him off some more by adding his girlfriend.
I'm not sure whether she's going to accept the friend request or not, but I know I won't be missing her too much. She's ugly. Like him. As in seriously.
I am OK with ugly people, although I am a very dashing young man. What I'm not OK with is ugly guys camwhoring. It won't be as bad if you've got good complexion and look delectable(even for a guy, that's if a guy can look delectable in my eyes, and that rarely happens), but if you don't have it, please kindly shut the fuck up and don't camwhore TYVM.
I feel like posting his picture for comic relief, but on second thoughts, naw. I won't be that evil. I might infringe some laws too. Not healthy.
I commend him for his balls though. To be able to simply talk to a random guy whom he doesn't know, that takes courage. In a way or two. I mean, it's tiring to type. It's even more tiring for ME to type because he's a retard and I had to find a way to reply him in the most civil manner. I wanted to add in a few fiery words, like saying that his comment is totally unnecessary and that he jut self-owned, but I didn't because I'm a civilized man.
But what the hell man. This kind of person also can get girlfriend. I lost in life.
And on a completely random note, here's a bit more info about him which might give us a better insight to his weird actions, aka self-own:
High School:
St Joseph's Institution '07
-- 12/17/2009 04:14:00 AM
It's not worth it.
So I was watching a bit of news while waiting for the 7PM show on Channel8 when they reported on the Copenhagen climate-talk-thingy(not that interested in current affairs) and protests against all the politicking that ensued within the meeting-thingy itself.
But seriously, did anyone expect anything out of this kind of meeting?
Every country has its own interests to protect, and the meeting would be spent trying to bring down this protection by these countries, in order for all of the 195 countries in the world to settle on how much carbon should be emitted per year.
It's impossible for such a pointless meeting to bear fruit. The intention is there, the idea is there, but the means not.
Smaller, less-developed countries are bullied into not developing because developing would increase their carbon emissions, and if the bigger countries are going to do stupid stuff like impose sanctions such as 'Emit X amount of carbon = pay Y amount of money'. Poor countries won't be able to afford it. But the bigger countries would. Development and financial wealth will always be more important than protection of the weather.
And what ran through my mind when watching the report was how irresponsible the people protesting are. Do they think that a mere congregation of 5 people(I think) hanging a banner down the Sydney Opera House campaigning against the politicking in Copenhagen would help? It is indeed a remarkable feat for them to be able to hang that banner in the first place, and it probably was headline news in many countries, but all this actions could result in is publicity.
Is publicity going to help in their war against carbon emissions from countries?
People are too naive, it's not going to work. Things would remain as it is because it's structure is stable and none of the countries would want to get out of this comfort zone. And even if there are countries aiming to get out of the comfort zone, there are other bigger countries to reign in the smaller ones. This jostling is a waste of time and money and more resources. Protests in a certain country won't make that country change its mind either, because the interests the country wishes to protect is/are far greater than human lives.
What can humans do to get their point across? Die? Threaten to die? Take the plunge for the government to heed them?
Is there a point?
To quote Stalin: One death is tragic. One million is statistics.
Really, no point. Why bother to fight when you can't fight it? What, to protect the Nature, to prove that you've tried but failed? To show to the world that you've got the guts to stand up against the power of the world(in a manner of speaking)?
Isn't it just a way to assuage your guilt of living up till now and leaving a lot of carbon footprints?
'Oh, I've released X amount of carbon, now I'm feeling guilty so I'm going to protest such that other people can't release as much carbon as me.'
They feel better that way after protesting, then they die down after the COP15. Irresponsible because they make themselves out to look like they've tried a great deal, when there's no work done at all.
What they should do is keep their cool, take over the government of their country, and then wreck havoc in their own country. Isn't that more substantial than making a lot of noise?
Oh what's that? Too much trouble to set-up your own political party, and too much trouble to campaign for a green, carbon-free country? That just means you're too idealistic. Not everyone in your country is as idealistic as you are, and if you can't persuade majority of your population you probably can't persuade the majority of the world, so is there a point in COP15 at all?
They say that Singaporean youths are apathetic about politics. I say it's because it doesn't make a difference whether we give a shit or not. We can't even vote yet ffs.
And the people who make headlines, they get their faces printed all over the newspapers. Why? Why are they getting billions of copies of themselves printed all over the world in paper which they are trying to save? OK I know newspaper isn't really paper, but you get the point.
And they get a lot of buzz from the Internet about them. If you were to type 'Sydney Opera House' into yahoo, you'd get a picture of the banner. Quite efficient eh?
Speaking about the Internet reminds me of virtual assets.
Everyone plugged into the Internet has virtual assets, be it your MSN, Yahoo! mail, Friendster account, Facebook account, Restaurant City, Mafia Wars, Pet Society, Friends For Sale, Travian, Battleon, Runescape, etc.
Everyone puts in time and effort into making sure that these assets grow properly. People would want to talk to their friends on MSN, would want to add their other friends into MSN, to perhaps keep a contact log in the form of MSN. As for games I need not elaborate.
So there are times when you get your friend to help you play certain of you online assets for you, like when I get my other 2 friends to cover me while I sleep on Travian. And I cover them while they sleep, because I have weird sleeping hours(as usual).
But what happens if I screw up? Or what happens if they screw up? It doesn't happen at all because we're perfect, but what if we screw up? What if an account gets hacked? Who should we trust/not trust?
Is there a point in a squabble of virtual assets?
To fall out with a friend over something that inconsequential, that pixellized, is it worth it?
-- 12/16/2009 02:15:00 AM
I hope you're safe.
-- 12/13/2009 04:05:00 AM
If I ain't got you.
And when I got onto Travian I was notified that the server has already ended. This is exactly how long I've played on S6:
Population: 14,692
Registered since: 28/11/08
Playtime: 374 Days
One whole fucking year. Back then I was with Kaisheng and Delwin, trying to find a foothold when it was a dog-eat-dog world out there with raids coming in all the time and us having to be online ever-so-often to avoid getting our villages pillaged and our women raped.
Ah, it's been a year. I've been playing Travian S6 for a far longer time than I've been in AJC. And now I'm about to lose it. All my 18 villages, and 14292 villagers(womenfolk I presume, because I'm a sexist). I know I'm not the best Travian player out there, but for a non-gold user I reckon I'm pretty good.
In Travian, as long as you're devoted and smart, you can play well. But in other aspects of Life, it's not that simple, and I lack in luck. I don't know why I can't succeed either =\
Shit man. So many hours spent on this game which would be deleted next week because the server has to reset. I'm not going to start a new server but the fact remains that I will miss this game. Even though it's frustrating at times, when you see attacks landing and you can't do shit about it, even though you know it's just pixels and that the real you aren't getting hurt in any way, YOU STILL CAN'T HELP IT.
It's a relieve that the server ended, that I won't have to play this troublesome game anymore, but still...
And I finished reading 'Pretty Face', which has like 52 chapters. I started on Monday. I don't know why but I read things fast. And I hate to have a manga series end on me like that. I don't like the tone of finality with the ending of manga-s, because I like to look forward to them. Like how I probably won't be able to take it very well when One Piece ends, because I'd have been chasing it for the past N years.
It's really depressing when a series end. I hate final episodes, it's much like Travian. Everything has that tone of finality, a conclusion, and that's not a very happy thing.
But then again, because everything is pervaded by mortality, one learns to cherish things. And when you hold something so close, so dearly, it'd hurt when it ends.
And when things end you'd feel empty. You don't know why you're here, because you don't seem to be succeeding in anything. You don't excel in anything at all, and although you may seem to be a proud person, you realize that you actually have nothing to your name. You have nothing to be proud of, but you remain proud anyway, because that's your way of living, that's your source of dignity, and when this illusion is destroyed by that sense of emptiness your delusion falls apart, you realize that your source of dignity is non-existent, thus you don't see why you need it at all. Then you start to want to flail about because flailing is good for health, but you don't want to appear to have 'fallen' so you go about acting normal.
And like your handphone which is telling you 'Low-Battery', you ignore your handphone because you just want everything to end.
If I ain't got Travian.
Damn.
-- 12/09/2009 03:06:00 AM
Nothing cracks me up like sick jokes.
It's really not sexual. I sompa.
There were two nuns...
One of them was known as Sister Mathematical (SM), and the other one was known as Sister Logical (SL).
It is getting dark and they are still far away from the convent.
SM: Have you noticed that a man has been following us for the past thirty-eight and a half minutes? I wonder what he wants.
SL: It's logical. He wants to rape us.
SM: Oh, no! At this rate he will reach us in 15 minutes at the most? What can we do?
SL: The only logical thing to do of course is to walk faster.
SM: It's not working.
SL: Of course it's not working. The man did the only logical thing. He started to walk faster, too.
SM: So, what shall we do? At this rate he will reach us in one minute.
SL: The only logical thing we can do is split. You go that way and I'll go this way. He cannot follow us both.
So the man decided to follow Sister Logical.
Sister Mathematical arrives at the convent and is worried about what has happened to Sister Logical.
Then Sister Logical arrives.
SM: Sister Logical! Thank God you are here! Tell me what happened!
SL: The only logical thing happened. The man couldn't follow us both, so he followed me.
SM: Yes, yes! But what happened then?
SL: The only logical thing happened. I started to run as fast as I could and he started to run as fast as he could.
SM: And?
SL: The only logical thing happened. He reached me.
SM: Oh, dear! What did you do?
SL: The only logical thing to do. I lifted my dress up.
SM: Oh, Sister! What did the man do?
SL: The only logical thing to do. He pulled down his pants.
SM: Oh, no! What happened then?
SL: Isn't it logical, Sister?
A nun with her dress up can run faster than man with his pants down.
And for those of you who thought it would be dirty, say two Hail Marys!
From:
http://stories.xnxx.com/story/2167/Two_nuns
-- 12/06/2009 03:39:00 AM
And you know you failed.
So we were having some supposedly secretive mission for the main character in the Esplanade because he's about to get his girlfriend to be his girlfriend, some form of making their relationship official(not like it wasn't already official), but whatever, if he's that pedantic and if we've got time, why not?
So we got there, and the plan was:
Main character deposits bag at the cloakroom, gets a deposit ticket, just before the concert starts.
Noobs(meaning us) deposit a box with a clue at the cloakroom, gets a deposit ticket, and swaps the deposit tickets with main character.
At the end of the concert, one noob collects the main character's bag and zao-s. Main character tells girlfriend(to-be) to collect his bag, and passes her the swapped deposit ticket so she would be collecting a box instead.
A clue on the box would tell her where to go, which is the courtyard entrance. Another clue would be passed to her by another noob, which would tell her to get out, and walk towards the jetty.
That's more or less the plan, but the main character fucked up on us.
He failed many times.
1) He forgot to leave the clue on the box.
2) He got there late. Damn late. The concert is supposed to start at 7.30, he reached at 7.40.
3) He greeted the noobs, and the girlfriend-to-be kinda caught on. Idiot. He blew our cover straightaway.
4) He failed to make it to the cloakroom to deposit his bag.
5) We failed to deposit his bag and the box because we didn't have concert tickets, which are required for depositing(he said 'don't need, I try before').
So we had to change our plans, with him having no reception during the concert. First, a noob would give her the box, so he's supposed to dupe her into going to the cloakroom to collect his bag while he rushes off to the toilet, where the noob would give her the box.
Then the rest of the plan proceeds as stated above.
The problem with her was: Stupidity.
She failed to solve the clue, which is like damn easy. Give her a hint liao still cannot. Give her 2nd hint then can. WTF. We didn't factor in
1) tardiness
2) stupidity
when the plans were made. So..yea.
And at the courtyard entrance, the 2nd clue was given. But the girl didn't read it, she just walked away. There's this 'Take 40 steps into the courtyard and look towards your left' thing, which was totally ignored because she was being a retard. And a number was provided. My number. And she called and I answered and it was tough talking to an idiot. Seriously. I had to tell her stuff like:
'No, your legs won't break that easily.'
'You survived the O levels! You can survive this!'
Oh well.
And I gave up trying to talk to her after awhile, it seemed like English doesn't go down too well with her. So I told her I'd hang up and go up to her and point her the goal to strive for, and I walked and watched as she went up to a random guy whom she apparently thought was me. So I had to tap her to get her attention and point her the direction and disappear into the night.
The couple disappeared into the night, leaving the noobs wondering where the fuck are they, before chancing upon them and their more intimate moments before puking and leaving and puking along the way because it's weird to see your friend of 7 years in that manner.
AAR: None. He thought he failed 4 times. I'm not sure whether these are the exact 5 things where he failed in, but it's something along those lines. I'm extorting free buffet for all the noobs who participated, rich people should be sexploited after all.
Come here, wallet.
-- 12/05/2009 02:50:00 AM