homecoming07
ok so i sorta got to school at 8.15. then stoned. then stoned. then leo and ks ran off home. ponners. haha. then kaisheng and i suddenly got caught by mdm jasmine and we had to go for a re-supply run. so we went to bishan market and talked to the very helpful lady at cheers. she showed us to prime, where we bought the 6cans of longans. then we went buy the ice. oh yes, im talking abt heroin. of course, cat high has the neighbourhood police post just opposite. we ran for it. then we walked to j8 buy onion rings. then walk back. sian mdm jasmine havent return me money yet =.= yanyway it's rather much of a crowd. then i go com lab 2 stone and watch people play dota then menglong called me down for saikhang. he fuck lah, scam me. so after finishing up i went to stone. emo-ed about. i c crowds, im not preoccupied with smth, i emo. how weird. so when the clement asked me help out at rock wall i was more than willing. haha. helped the kids wear their harnesses. then since they kids, i simply pulled them up with my brute strength to check whether the damned harness would hold not, and whether it's comfy and not cutting into the balls.
then i watched as people packed up. then mr teo hauled me up for saikhang. after awhile then done. then balek kampong.
i cant seem to deny all the info.
-- 6/30/2007 11:54:00 PM
wooo vulgarities.
ah. i dont know why. the middle finger just cant stop erecting. then the gracious f word just keeps spewing out from my mouth. how civilized. ƒ
ah well. u gain some things, lose some things. as simple as that. no point hanging onto certain things. it just makes the burden even harder to bear. i should relinquish my hold of her in my heart liao lah. if i can do so in action, why not emotionally? if not i'm bathically making life hard for me. and wats the point, since she doesnt share or at least, feel it? ah. i guess sometimes it's ok to b abit foolish. i learn things the hard way yanyway. perhaps this'd b better for me. then next time, wait, there wont b a next time.
and now i have some form of coughing fits. barely recovered from the sore throat. which robbed me of my ability of speech during training. talk to the part As nicely, then suddenly zao sia. comical. haha. cat high later open school. scary thought. i'd most probably be emo-ing. i normally do that when im like, thrown into a sea of humans. it's the feeling of solitude. the crowd suddenly turns into hapless piles of meat moving from place to place, emotionless. i dont know. perhaps i'd talk more. haha. it's amusing, how time changes someone. sec1, i was damn enthu. just keep talking to the...visitors. guide them around, did my job well. then sec2, just wanted to finish off and zao for some special cause. ah well.
dont really need anything. a big 'thankyou' would make me smile for decades. (:
-- 6/30/2007 12:13:00 AM
dead end
it's not that hard to make someone feel bad. it's so easy to torture someone physically/mentally/emotionally. well im being tortured now. why? coz i've been trying to log on to battleon for the past hour. and fuck, it's a no go. damn. nvm.
hey. it's much harder to make people feel good though. why? humans are apathetic. cant b bothered. wont deign to help. ah. i dont know wth im talking. but i know i shouldnt try logging into battleon. she doesnt like me. coercion won't bring happiness. and im already getting tired of clicking at the mouse to refresh the goddamned page. i seem to b hitting dead ends.
but she better get cured. i know how much it hurts.
-- 6/24/2007 04:58:00 PM
sentosa and sakae
er...ok so i went to sentosa yesterday. with my mother, sister and 2 cousins. haha so we went on the luge, took the skyride, and er went to the beach. haha so crowded. after building sandcastles in the sand, wait, i mean, my cousins built some tunnel sort of thing. which was quite cool as the sand was bathically like suspended in mid-air. then the tide came in. how fun, we tried to built a dike-like sort of thing, which managed to take around 4blows of the waves. then the other 2 defences(trench-like sort of things) caved in after awhile. then we sat and watched the tunnel crumble away by the waves. and my cousins and i were wet. then we went underwater world. wait i mean my sis brought my 2 cousins in. then they came out and we went home. i was knocked out lah. then reach home liao shit and bathe liao then go for sakae at rv mall. oh ye, 1 more thing to note. my pants turned hard due to the seawater. how fun (:
and then sakae. er...ok i met edward the 500m guy first. then we saw hq. then marilyn. then ella and jeremy. yargh. so we went in first lor. dawn came in much later. and i think we made a mess of the place lah. dawn and i, we spilled the green tea all over once each. all against jeremy. oops. sorry, that was on purpose. haha. then we bathically partied there. then i went off home to get some dvds to go watch. bw appeared then. then went home at around 1plus. then went home.
bathically a fun day. good for emo-ing about.
-- 6/23/2007 09:11:00 PM
annual camp
they're quite noob lah, but fuck. so pampered. cock-up fire drill until like that. and that's only the first night. but nvm. alot of us slept at 3plus/4, then ya lor.
missed pt coz too tired to move. find that familiar?? then had the st john's first aid teaching. fuck lah the sj people took the trouble to teach us and they sleep. the more i think the more my blood boils. sorry st john ics for our poor behaviour but thanx for coming (:
then lunch. went to buy porridge. my dental problems. then balek then ifc. individual fieldcraft. then damn fucked up, clement got some meeting and sinying didnt come. so zhengfeng came to help me out. haha. then the part As damn fuck also, drag boots like fun like that. fuck lah, their boots got gold arh? too heavy arh? then after the ifc then i forgot wat i do. then slept late again. forgot wat time. but i was in need of a shower liao.
then missed pt again. sorry daryl. haha. then after that the rain came and fucked everything up. forgot who changed the schedule for the day, but we had to do 2 shifts of ifc. fuck lah. and the part As went around dragging again. so this time i talked nicely to them. perhaps it worked. but with the -ed. so ya lor. damn wat. then bw shaun dh alvin and i, we played a lil bit of bball. i somehow scored twice. and bw and i OWNED the rest of them. haha. then we played with the water hose and ice and watever. then fun night. waterbombs. fun. we screwed kenneth chaan well. haha how fun. then there's this part A who decided that he got killed in the game and needs to wait for his teammates to b rescue him. bathically he doesnt want to b wet. wtf. and we poured water on him. then he cried. how scary. ok lah kinda scary. well, if u're reading this, sorry. serious.
then we had the hell night training planning. ok lah, part C more united liao. like we know how to discuss things much better, rather than just keep harping on ur own point. haha. then we had the fire drill at 1.30am. how nice, their timing improved. after moving them from the grandstand to the area before the canteen, the 5 magical words were used, and the effect was immediate. after quite awhile of tekaning(wont dwell too much on details, kinda humiliating), then punishment, they went off at 2.20am.
then i missed the last pt. AGAIN. sorry daryl, seriously. haha and say cheong also, sorry. but at least i pulled myself down and reached there to watch them running their rounds. haha. then after awhile more of fooling around then released then went on 88 with wc dh and alvin. they accompanied me more lah haha. then ya lor. got home had a good shower, then watched 4episodes of the channel u 10-11pm show. haha.
everything would b more bearable if u'd show even the slightest bit of concern.
-- 6/21/2007 08:02:00 PM
spec course
we didnt get any awards.
i agree with menglong.
why act zai and act enthu and be somebody we arent just to get a stupid black plaque with the ncc golden emblem?
and as everyone knows, cat high got standard 1. (:
no need to prove ourselves to yany1 by doing stupid things to get awards.
no point. and menglong being the timer, whoa. damn loud sia. clement also. then i mouth ulcer until like dumpling like that, cant shout fer nuts. we didnt have fun but still, an enriching experience. more than enough liao. haha. and to the hamster that flies-SCREW YOU! haha no lah. joking nia lah. there's seriously no point getting all that awards but not doing ur job as a spec. so ya lor.
phase2 people are mostly unambitious. that's all. (:
-- 6/17/2007 11:16:00 AM
yeowch
how foolish. im sorry. implicate ya'll. spoil the mood.
and somehow i dreamt of her. dreamt that she unblocked me. then i was contemplating over whether to unblock her too. ah f lah. should stop thinking too much.
must b the fever.
illusions.
wake up.
-- 6/13/2007 03:28:00 PM
and they arent chio at all
i sorta read the newspapers. the sunday 1. ya, yesterday. the sisters bit the lame only lah. go pose for virtual crap shit. then do head counts and bust their 1k friends limit on friendster. headcount huh. pls lor humans should NEVER waste their lives away in front of the computer trying to get friends. or play games. bit of de-stressing and leisure is ok lah, but to spend weeks staring at the so-called 'magic box' and hitting the piano keys, well i think that's wat people with no life would do. ok perhaps i have no life too but at least i know i have no life. (: and im trying to change that fact by playing more gba instead ahaha. ok no diff sorry. yanyway back to the point. they are trying to b famous. eeyer. oh ye, and i went to look at their profile. siala so ugly. then all the AC stuff come out. nearly puked. i cant stand people who act cute. brrr.
oh ye. i heard noises. people blasting music of some sort. didnt dare to check.
oh ye, i also cant fathom how guys leave long hair. it's cumbersome. a slightly long fringe tickles my forehead and my hair itches all over. it's really cumbersome. or maybe my scalp no good. i think it's my scalp ahaha. nvm. i shall not leave long hair. short and neat, good.
oops. i blabbered. ter hell with my nonsense haha
-- 6/11/2007 02:14:00 AM
writer's block.
writer's block i guess. i spend most of my time stoning in front of the com. the fingers can only hover across the keyboard. even if i type some random words, another finger would find it's way to the backspace button. rather much of a miracle im able to type this. thank you, thank you. well. just here for some other random crap. hey. this hols bit the long. i already feel like going back to school. why? coz my runescape pal's com spoilt. and people i want to talk to on msn doesnt talk to me. maybe they dont even appear online. =.= i seriously got nothing to do online. so i indulge myself in pokemon. but then again it's getting boring. im playing with myself, innit? i want to get out. but i dont know where to. and my knees hurt. hers too, most prob. i dont want to seek treatment yanymore. it's not helping. i might as well just get used to it. if she's seeking treatment, where? can i stalk her? do i dare to? ahaha stupid random-ing of mine, sorry. my tagboard's dead. some1 pls, give it first-aid. ahaha. nvm. let it die. i should remove it some day. :) the wry smile. ahaha. i doubt the coherence of this post. i type randomly. oops. back to the...er...pokemon then. cheers. :)
-- 6/04/2007 08:14:00 PM
gays? rheumatic?
u hate homosexuals?
yanyway, it's still love.
i think the sec3 camp enlightened me.
and i was thinking. really? got rheumatism? my heart goes out for her then. she's suffering the same pain as me. how fortunate.
and nothing drives me to use the com. well, hardly anybody msn me. and without gaming friends, games r pointless and boring. this june hols, well. idk. boring i guess. i cant convert myself into a full-time mugger. why?
and u. u talked to me just for publicity purposes. u didnt even care abt my relationship problems. simply ploughed on and tried to make me do smth. u dont even care abt wats happening to my life. why?
why do i hardly get recognition for my efforts, however minimal they are?
why do i sometimes feel like hiding under my pillow for the slightest comments people give?
why do people
always compare?
and why do i
always pale in comparison?
coz im nothing. i know.
im tired
-- 6/02/2007 12:03:00 AM