celebrations in a few hrs time.
yea, happy teachers' day.
geez. i dont think there's a need for me to go back at all lor. the chers wont refer to me as much as the others. the mere fact that im present would make them feel obliged to talk to me. but the fact remains that they're unwilling to.
after all, put me beside some1 else more outstanding, blahblahblah, i dont think u'd want to refer to me liao mah.
perhaps i wont forget them, but they wont remember me much more.
their brains and memories are reserved for outstanding students, hardly smth i fit into.
i keep telling others to stop whining and get on with life. i guess im not much better either. i dont even practise wat i preach.
im tired. or rather, sleepy.
gah. i want just 1 simple thing. but i guess simple things are harder to procure.
gah. im sleepy.
-- 8/30/2007 09:49:00 PM
1 more day
ah i lost alot of songs in the course of helping kaisheng back up his games. sigh. im so self-sacrificial, wat to do?
but that's beside the point.
1more day. and wat's the point? the atmosphere would b heavy with awkwardness wouldnt it? if so then is there yany point in turning up at all? shouldnt i just go somewhere and emo and cry?
geez. i feel pathetic. i seek solace in pokemon. (:
and the 'yong bao' just started playing. shuffle mode some more. how nice, my phone knows my mood best. well at least there's smth to boast about.
i normally tell myself-if u can feel sad coz there's nothing to be happy about, why not feel happy coz there's nothing to be sad abt?
but of courset, every1 knows how i feel, kinda apparent from my posts.
and then again i'd normally conceal how i feel. and wats the point, since people'd think i dont mind, and make things more convenient for themselves and worse for me? i blp lah, dont dare tell them.
bit the tired of this.
the heart doesnt reach out to the body.
no, i dont mean biologically.
-- 8/30/2007 01:02:00 AM
dead silence
so today had cip.
collect the tin cans at tpy lib.
then after awhile of collection, my mood took a nosedive. wahaha how fun.
then went orchard. met john, my love.
then eat liao. then go watch movie. dead silence.
scary movie indeed. i am so totally freaked out.
it's not even half of 'alone'. 'alone' alone managed to freak me out lah. as in, like, totally scared i didnt dare to watch. maybe it's coz the cinema was rather deserted when we watched alone. but nvm.
ok so 'dead silence' is abt 'mary shaw' and her dolls. mary shaw is bathically killing all whom silenced her last time at...raven's fair? or field, cant remember. so it's just awful dolls appearing at random places, and mary shaw leering out from the random dolls.
yeah i guess that pretty much puts in place the story doesnt it?
the dolls are creepy yes.
oh and mary shaw has this rather unpleasant and definitely rude habit of killing people by tearing out their tongues when they scream upon they c her popping out from random places. if they dont scream then they're safe.
how totally possible not to scream when faced with the prospects of a vengeful spirit leering at u lecherously with those doll-like eyes.
but the movie was more or less rather conservative. as in, well, the director aint out to freak people out lah. it's more or less possible to predict the next ghostly encounters, as mary shaw again, has this rather annoying habit of muffling noises b4 she atks.
yea.
scary, yes, but it ok.
wait i think it's getting into my nerves. imagine waking up and...brr i shudder to think.
-- 8/26/2007 10:19:00 PM
sceptical, and kaisheng's phone
so i lent my phone to kaisheng, since he needs me memory cards for storing his ahem stuff. then i was thinking of using my sis' old phone. but kaisheng sorta offered me his own phone instead. upon realizing his mistake, he tried to eat his words. of course words arent edible but still it was a rather good attempt, which obviously failed.
so now im saddled with a 3G phone, which i cant video call with. and i no like! haha.
aye. i think im getting bit the sceptical of people who r nice to me. i keep thinking, why're they so nice? they must have some form of hidden agenda. which is, of course, hidden. i dont like it. i dont know why i cant.
'you can't always be the one listening to people right'
(: thanx
-- 8/24/2007 11:48:00 PM
nice quote
"He is remembering ur face so that he can go home and masturbate."
careful, people.
-- 8/23/2007 12:11:00 AM
21st
in, like, 9hr30mins time, it'd b a bundle of joy's 15th year birthday. not that she's still a bundle of joy lah.
haha. she should feel so totally honoured.
-- 8/21/2007 12:30:00 AM
15th year
i dont think i've achieved much.
i dont think i would.
i dont think i'd made an impact on yany1.
dont think i would either.
cheers.
15years.
-- 8/20/2007 12:00:00 AM
muddy!
ok i dont know why today so sleepy. must b the 'credit-card' thingy. u know, dont sleep much for a few days, let it snowball, then let it all collapse on a nice day.
and today was nice. or rather, yesterday. aiya. i mean friday lah. my com's cock, i mean, clock, is screwed.
yargh. had...english and geog. both pregnant ladies. both free periods. (: checkups i guess. then slept through most of it then woke up to play firered for awhile. haha. and teo came back. rawr. less charging openly. uh. then ncc...ahaha i like the pt. roll roll roll in the mud. damn fun lah! and MOONG was with me. siao siao people. (:
then tuition then balek kampong. whoa, sand dropped out from me at the toilet lah. how fun.
oh ya. which reminds me. on thurs, ho-oh suddenly asked kunseng and me to go HOD room find her. then told me to go in and wait while she scold kunseng. then she came in. and talked.
i guess she's rather accurate. im like having the bo-chap attitude. totally un-motivated. nothing driving me. then she said smth abt if got genie in the lamp granting me wishes, i wont wish for much. im THAT simple. perhaps wat i want cant b 'wished for'. the wry smile (:
wat to do? suck thumb? no. definite no.
but still...
-- 8/17/2007 11:38:00 PM
neoprints
been a rather long day. yargh. assembly was slack as usual. but got a bit more proud of the school. and ncc land (: goldgoldgold. haha. yand then had geog retest. mastery re-review in short. crap lah. totally crapped out. nvm. then alot of stuff.
then went take neoprints with...kaisheng kunseng sunny JOHN ANG. went to yishun northpoint there. and there was this 1, i was like kissing john lah. (: how fun. my first time leh. virginity broken liao. then dinner. then took the mrt to yio chu kang, then 86. nearly fell asleep.
are u like, ashamed of me or smth?
-- 8/15/2007 11:23:00 PM
NDP 07
well my mood was dampened. seriously.
coz memories of last year filled me. perhaps she'd forgotten. nvm.
and then the parade. maybe she's in? sian.
she marches on, while i hantak? i dont improve, i dont get on with life, i dont do yanything.
i lose. or rather, lost.
-- 8/09/2007 11:49:00 PM
ndp eve
ok i got back the phone. surprise, surprise.
and well last year, i guess i was still normal. as in. yeah.
i remember it vividly. only too vividly.
-- 8/08/2007 09:13:00 PM
miss khoo bitch
I already finished the chem spa. so i sat down. and then i took out my hp. then placed it back into my chest pocket. then took out again as there's quite a lot of time to burn.
then she buay song. 'why're u holding onto ur handphone?? put it back in!' then i said 'sorry', in a rather...sing-song way. then...'take out ur handphone! now!'
wtf lah.
nvm. then i passed it to her the way L in death note holds stuff. picked that habit up from kaisheng.
then after the whole thing i went to her. asked her whether i can get my phone back not. 'no.' then 'why' from me. then 'why?? u ask me why?? get out of the lab!'
how polite.
then talked to miss qiu. ah, now then i know chem spa not allowed to bring in hps. so many people dont know also. ok so it's quite wrong of me to take it out in the midst of busy-ness. but still she neednt have shouted right?? and at least tell me where and why i did wrong lah. mr ng confiscated my phone once, and i didnt feel bad at all, since it all rhymed and reasoned.
f lah. she's just trying to tyrannize us into being subservient towards her. then she can lord it all over us. confiscating stuff just because it's in her power to do so. then also never give yany form of explanation. im not some animal.
nvm. band concert was fun yanyway (:
haha i like the shouting of 'GRAN!!!'
(: it's damn fun. and the singing of the school song, i more or less shouted throughout. could've fainted. haha. and zijing and kunseng were more or less trying to hanthump me when i started shouting 'GRAN!'
how fun, and we had supper at manoner's and then balek kampong. and saw eric and HERBERT and some1 else i dont know. haha. how fun.
-- 8/07/2007 11:58:00 PM