V-day 09
Happy Valentines day, even though I don't know what's there to be happy about. I mean, it's just another day.
More importantly, happy birthday BW (: hope you enjoyed the BBQ just now wahaha. And to WC, too. ((((:
It's definitely good that we're still going strong despite going into different JCs/polys.
Normally I'd be dang pissed and fierce and touchy over the fact that I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend/sex partner, but I'm not really that bothered now. I guess I've matured, and that I've seen the light.
What's there to be pissed about? You see couples around anytime, anywhere, anyhow(doing things). It's not an exceptional sight on Valentines--it's not like Hungry Ghost Festival, where the ghosts are released for one month. Couples have Valentines everyday, so I don't see a point in the 'celebrations', or hyped-up affair, but I can live with that.
Let them enjoy the attention for one day per year, why not? Everybody happy.
Lonely people are more sensitive during such seasons. They look out for all the couples and emo to themselves, thinking why is life so unfair to them by depriving them of the chance to love and be loved. They forget that they have friends, and that a sex partner/boyfriend/girlfirned =/= their world.
Seriously, having an intimate friend of the opposite sex could certainly be a very interesting and enriching sexperience, in more ways than one, but that doesn't mean that being deprived of that sexperience spells the end of the world for you, or that you should emo because others get to sexperience it earlier. Or that you should emo because you were with someone last year but you lost that someone this year. Or whatever it is.
After all, it's just another day, and like New Year and Chinese New year and festivals like that, I don't bother witht messaging people about how blah blah blah blah.
And perhaps I shouldn't even try looking for a girlfriend in AJ. Or rather, I shouldn't even bother searching for one. After all, teenagers these days aren't able to stick to a partner for long. 2-3months = dang zai. I'd rather stay single and concentrate on studies(that says a lot) rather than try and find a girlfriend. Such things should come naturally--I have many more years to wait anyway.
And being without braces feels weird. I just feel so..naked. And light. I haven't felt my teeth for a a long time. Oh and the interesting thing about removing your braces is that hardly anyone notices it. Not even friends you're with for like 4years. I can understand though. People can only notice when you put on braces, not when you get them removed. That's because being without braces is the norm, wearing braces is abnormal/subnormal, and removing the braces returns the brace-wearer back to normal.
Normal isn't noticed. I like it when people lag when I give them my big smile, which normally cramps up my face. They won't know why I'm giving them that toothy grin, either.
Speaking of grins reminds me of smirks. I was walking home after the end of orientation finale, which was very high, when something rather weird happen.
I don't normally walk with my spectacles on, so when I saw this girl walking with a blue-yellow shirt, I quickly put them on. The person wearing the AJC PE T-shirt was my neighbour(she lives on the same block, same floor, and I know of her sexistence), bur I don't talk to her at all.
She was eyeing my pants, and I was dang turned on. Joking, she was trying to read the 'AJC' on the top left hand corner of my pants(when I look down on the pants), and I knew she's my neighbour(she was with her boyfriend, too), so I simply smirked at her. I like the concept of smirking. It's sort of an all-knowing grin, and I like being all-knowing.
OK quite a shitty post. But somehow, on my way to the BBQ, I managed to enlighten myself and not get depressed by the fact that I'm a lonely man. With the above reasons I guess. Aiya such things should come naturally one. So let's not bother about it until it comes. It is like Sleep. Sometimes you suffer from insomnia, but you can also have narcolepsy. So yea. Don't bother thinking about what could've been, because being all hypothetical amounts to nothing.
Don't think my break would be coming soon though, I'm quite sure that girls don't have a good impression of me. When I don't smile, I look fierce and foreboding. When I smile, it's when I'm keesiao, and that's bad. When I'm neutral, I'm cracking yellow jokes and making sexist comments. I am too colourful. Wahaha.
Argh. The lack of sleep is getting to me.
-- 2/15/2009 02:01:00 AM
