The more(of what?), the better.
I reformatted my computer several days back. Sunday to be sexact. And now it works perfectly, and the start-up time is orgasmic.
No more laggy computer. And I jizz in my pants.
So now I'm completely in love with the computer.
Which reminds me of how I think that there's no such thing as 'selflessness'.
Take for example, a young girl trapped in a burning house. Normal humans would give their all to save the girl. But why, even though they don't know her? Because they won't be able to live with the knowledge and guilt that they watched a girl burn to death. Or disfigurement followed by suicide as we live in a cruelly vain world.
In that case, the term 'selflessness' doesn't exist at all. It's only guilt, and perhaps 'conscience' that makes us want to save the girl.
As I was talking about me loving my computer, my computer decided to lag out a few times, and now I don't like it as much as I did already.
So now let's talk about how people in love always talks about impossible, corny, yet supposedly 'touching' stuff like 'I would die for you!!!111!!!'
Humans are above animals because they are calculative. First, take for example the girl trapped in a burning house. I am her boyfriend. I love her to bits and pieces because I'm one-dimensional and she allows me to play with her body as much as I like.
I realized that if I lose her, I'd probably lose my only possible sex toy as most other girls are not as naive as her. So, for the sake of my dick's sextisfaction and fulfillment, I decided to risk my life for her by charging in to save her.
If I were to die saving her, at least my conscience would be clear--I did try to save her. I mean, after all, she's my girlfriend.
If I were to survive and she remains alive, the possibility of her loving me, and sexpressing her love in the way I want it, would increase.
So, did I save her to have a clear conscience, or did I save her because I wanted sex? Or is it because of the 'commitment' I have for her as a boyfriend?
Like I mentioned, humans are calculative creatures. They would calculate which option would benefit them the most in a very short period of time(that's the reaction time for humans, the 0.3seconds. Or 0.03 seconds, I'm not very sure), and do it.
Thus the 'selflessness' doesn't exist. Conscience, guilt, benefits, all those are the stuff that defines a human's actions.
I'd do good stuff, like carry stuff for a kid/old people, but I think that's for a sense of fulfillment for my soul, and not because I truly wanted to help the other party. It's a feel-good factor in one's life, and many people become self-righteous because of that. Which is rather stupid.
Since we're on the topic of selflessness and love, we might as well talk more about relationships. When I say relationships, I mean boyfriend-girlfriend/girlfriend-girlfriend/boyfriend-boyfriend.
Before I stepped into JC, I've always known it as something rather boring, a status that I won't want to be in. After I step into JC, I confirmed my knowledge.
What I see is men after men getting tied down and shackled by the women of their choice, to do crazy stuff like hold hands, walk around the school, watch movies.
Is that all there is a to a relationship? I asked a rather close friend of mine who has a boyfriend, and she told me that being in a relationship would mean you can speak your mind to him, and you can walk around holding hands and stuff like that. That intimacy is leagues apart from a close friend.
I mean, you can always tell a close friend everything in your life. So what's the difference? The holding hands, blah blah blah, all with a close friend. And that's something characteristic of an intimate relationship.
Is it romantic to be holding onto sweaty palms? That idea repulses me. And won't you get tired of doing the same thing all the time? Why not hold onto my dick instead? I mean, it has a better grip(or it's better to grip) than my hand.
Is that all a relationship is about? And after you get tired of each other, you guys just move on? I've seen too many break-ups, or heard of them. It's not that fun, and I don't really like the relationship.
I mean, it's OK to be in a state of love, but it's another thing to have a status of being a boyfriend of someone you like.
I don't like the idea of commitment, because it's scary. I hate making promises because I know I can't keep to them. So why make promises only to break them?
I'd rather stick to the feeling.
And I think that SYF is unhealthy. I know that there are schools which treats 'Gold' as a form of humiliation, because gold with honours is what matters. If you don't have GWH, you're nothing, and all your hard work is denied.
Then you get all PMS-ey and stuff, because you feel that the judges are cockeyed/eared, and that they denied you the rewards for your efforts.
But is that the case? Isn't it an event that is supposed to promote the interest in whatever you're performing? OK I'm not into such artistic stuff because I'm a boor, but I think that getting all that upset and uptight and upskirt over such stuff is just..stupid.
You've done your best, you've made the effort, you don't really have to care about the results. You've already done what you could, and if that doesn't please the judges, then it just doesn't. No point whining over that fact, because whining doesn't change anything. So what do I propose? Get used to it.
I think that competitions are more of self-fulfillment, and that even if you can't achieve the best award possible, at least you enjoyed the process.
Such competitions makes it seem as if the end-point is all that is important. Principals see that if you get a silver, you aren't putting in enough effort because you're supposed to get a GWH!!11!!! Then they deny all the effort you put in. That's rather unbecoming of the education system, that results are all that matters. I don't like it when people deny my efforts(which are probably almost insignificant anyway) with a single sentence. >(
Let's talk about tit-ration. There is an end point for the reaction, but if you achieve it that quickly it would make the sexperiment boring, right? Like, you first must pour this, then you must measure that amount, then you must jizz in your pants, then you slowly tit-rate drop by drop.
Even if you don't get the accurate results, as long as you do well consistently, or that you are satisfied, that is enough.
Getting to the point straightaway takes the fun out of life. OK actually the sexample wasn't that good.
Aiya, it's just a competition, it doesn't define anything about your true calibre. So there.
Disappointment is part and parcel of life, but letting it get at you isn't too healthy.
I know people who get bronze and are happy with it. So why are people whining about gold?
Oh yea and let's talk about sexuality in kids.
No, as far as I'm concerned, I'm not a paedophile. You can say that I'm attracted to the innocence of children, but that doesn't translate into any form of sexual desire for them. I just enjoy watching them at work. It probably sounds weird coming from me, the part about watching(people might attribute that to voyeurism), but I can assure you that I remain flaccid whenever I see kids.
So anyway, I've been seeing 2 young girls on my way home. I can't see how they are older than primary 5, but I can see almost the whole of their thighs. It's almost as if they are trying to challenge the limits of modesty. You can see their butt spilling all over the pants when they walk.
I was at Yishun bus interchange just now waiting for 812(the bus to SAFRA Yishun) when we saw a group of girls. The oldest one had some white, dang short pants on. At the butt/anus/asshole, there was a picture of a mouse, or at least I saw the word 'mouse'. So there I was, recalling the fact that I'm from Cat High, therefore I'm a cat, and cats catching mice isn't an unnatural phenomenon.
Trust me when I say that I don't enjoy those sights, nor do I particularly want to be in that situation whereby the butts of people spills all over, but it's tough when you're walking with 2 girls wearing such body-hugging pants. I didn't get tough of course. It's just scary how they are(almost) baiting paedophiles.
In the past, women showing off their forearms were considered immoral. Or at least the act of showing off your forearms isn't something socially correct. I remember reading somewhere that in the past, women went to swim, fully clothed to the neck.
The more you cover, the better.
Now, bikinis are all over the place. I remember Zhang Zi Yi sunbathing naked, got her picture taken, and then getting lambasted by the Chinese netizens for strutting her stuff(or lack thereof).
The more you reveal, the better.
Kids these days are getting too used to such fleshy sights. And parents dress them up to make them look cute, and in the eyes of the parents, cuteness comes in a revealing form.
It is no wonder that kids are growing up to become more and more sexual.
It is no wonder that paedophiles are getting more and more rampant.
Please, for fuck's sake, cover up.
-- 4/22/2009 08:32:00 PM
