What is she doing nao? =\
I am kept in the wake of her beauty, wondering where she is now and what is she doing.
Is she be eating dinner now, seeing as they are behind us by one hour?
Is she be watching TV with her family?
Is she be studying or doing something now?
Oh wait she's definitely doing something now. It's just that I don't know what is she doing.
How quaint it is that we could all be looking at the same moon, experiencing the same sun, but leading such different lives and under such different skies and speaking in different tongues.
Now, seriously..what is she doing nao? =\
It is quite easy to lose yourself in this world, because everything you're exposed to can erode your guiding principles in life. I did mention about the clichéd story about the tea leaves shit, and how not everyone can be that.
It's like the 'harmful rays of the sun', it increases chances of mutation in your cellular level, which would change you, slowly but surely, into someone you were not originally.
But is that necessarily a bad thing? It's like getting a tan. There is no such thing as a healthy tan, as it just means that your skin cells mutated. But it makes you more heat-resistant in a way because you won't get sunburnt anymore/as often as others. Change isn't that bad a thing after all, it's the way you see it.
Some people like to be white and beautiful, but they miss out on the sun this way. The glorious sun that shines upon the goddess in Bangkok. I can never miss out on the chance to bask in the beauty of the sun, and hers.
OK no link. So those people do not want that change, but really, it's all about your own perception of the change you're undergoing.
No one wants cancer after all. That mutation isn't good.
But how you look at how you're being transformed would be how you react to it. I'm normally not bothered by things and people around me, or I try to be indifferent to people that I'm not related with and things that piss me off, because in my previous blog post I stated that I like, and go for, mutual experiences.
Yes that's the same for sex, I won't want to have sex and pull out after I'm spent without letting my woman experience small deaths.
Oh wait that's not the point.
I was talking about transformations. It's impossible to remain unchanged throughout your entire life. But as long as your principles are the same, you've more or less retained your sanity.
Also, definitions are definitive. Hold yourself to what you think you are, and hold it with pride. Stick to your own principles, and never allow others to shake them, not even your closest friends. As long as it's not morally wrong, it just needs tweaking/fine-tuning every here and there. How you execute your principles is the only thing you need to alter to suit the occasion and company.
And you can try to read between the lines, I'd be quite clear in this. Don't want to keep you guessing that you're the intended audience.
Which reminds me, sanity is subjective. A looney may find himself mentally sound, but we supposedly 'know better'. But who really is the winner?
'A casual walk down a lunatic asylum proves that faith does not prove anything.'
I think that everyone has his own forest, his own grasslands, his own plains, all in his mind. That's his real sanctuary, his inner world, where no one can penetrate. People hide in it from time to time, because as everyone probably already knows, the world is cruel, though how cruel the world is I have no experience yet. But either way there's always a protection mechanism in the brain which would make people retreat into this shell. It's like a bomb shelter, and I know I use it from time to time too. But we always are able to get out. Insane people don't.
But what's wrong with being stuck in this mechanism?
Insane would be the word to describe people who hide, heal, and come out just to get hurt again.
I mean like if I were caught in a crossfire I'd probably just lie low. Fear of death keeps me there, it's only common sense.
Doesn't that make us all 'sane' people insane then?
It's just a matter of will.
This is purely random shit.
-- 7/09/2009 09:02:00 PM
