It's a curse to be brilliant.
I think that dealing with people is a very tiring thing to do. There are times when you have to appear interested in whatever they have to say even when you're damned bored by what they have to say, and having to reject them in the kindest way possible because that's the most EQ way of doing things. You want some time alone, but they keep bugging you, so you accommodate. Your life is spent pleasuring other people and when you want to indulge in some...self-pleasure, you have to come up with many excuses and reasons and push the other people who needs you to pleasure them away in the most civil way possible, but sometimes that's not possible so you end up not having any time alone to wank in the toilet.That is just sad, but that's not the point of my post today.
So I was thrown a youtube video of Paramore, because they are coming to Singapore for a concert..right? And my friend was telling me about how orgasmic the band is when I informed him that with my limited knowledge on English bands I know that there's a female in Paramore, and I added that she probably would feel weird that a fan finds her 'orgasmic'. So he showed me a song, and I had to regretfully inform him that even though the voice is good(or so it seemed to me), I...
can't hear through the accent. Really. It's quite a troubling issue actually. Troubling because a lot of shows are made by angmohs and those shows are usually action-packed, because I like violence/comedy more than those lovey-dovey kinda thing. So in the case of a violent movie, it'd have to be action-packed, because violence is an action(duh), and because it's action-packed and full of angmohs talking I am usually stuck with...
reading the subtitles. And when I'm stuck with reading the subtitles I don't know what's going on, even after the violence commences.
So much for 8bucks. I'd rather play 4hours of LAN, at least L4D has the subtitles to give you stuff like [Incoming attack] or [Jockey alert]. How decent of them. And in L4D you at least have a chance of creating history. In a way. Because you're the player, you survive, you do good, you have the sense of satisfaction only a gamer can derive. So healthy.
Speaking of L4D, I realized that I'm actually quite a bad gamer. Bad because I tend to become rather overbearing when it comes to games. I think it's quite normal for people to shout stuff like
HUNTER HUNTER
when a hunter pounces on them.
It's like shouting for help, of course you expect people to help get the hunter off you. So I shout and I normally shout damn loud, because I have powerful lungs meant for sucking dicks. That's normal, in fact I'm quite proud to be able to shout so loudly to ask for help.
The problem kicks in only when help doesn't arrive. I start looking around and if a friend isn't alert enough, probably stoning or SMS-ing because he thought everything was safe, I get pissed. And then I MIGHT shout at that poor dude. Or I'd just start complaining because my teammates aren't fast enough in rescuing me.
Then relations start to sour. OK not exactly sour, but really, it's just a game. I have to learn to take it easy because if not prolonged shouting and emotional abuse on people who are your friends whom you have a bone to pick IN A VIRTUAL WORLD might make you lose your real-life friends. Is there a point in playing then?
People play LAN for FUN, not the alliance but for fun, and if you get pissed with your friends because of something which was played for fun, it kinda(really) defeats the purpose right?
And being the overbearing person I am, I hereby declare myself clinically(I run a clinic. Really.) unfit for L4D and related games, so if you want to play with me please be aware that I shout and might get a bit abusive during the course of the game. And sorry if I've already shouted at you or something.
It's a curse to be brilliant. Sigh. =\
S6 is finally inaccessible. This just means that the server has restarted, and everything that I've worked for is officially gone and cannot be seen anymore. I took screenshots of my villages, and although all those would count for naught, I do think of my villages as my children and now at least I have pictures of my children to show my grandchildren next time.
-- 12/18/2009 03:47:00 AM