I don't know what to say.
Sometimes, I think that I'm losing my ability to excel in the things I wish to excel. Wait, that's all the time. It's not because of the environment, it's probably due to myself, Runescape, my harem, etc.
I used to kinda be active in school activities, like in primary school. My mum, sis, and I were out to eat breakfast at Ya Kun last Tuesday and we were talking about my childhood and how the computer is consuming my life, absorbing me into its very abyss of no return. But I was thinking--I don't really have a platform for myself anyway. Runescape just appears to be a cheap substitute for the sense of achievement I'd otherwise get from real life, minus much commitment and time-consuming activities.
I can login to Runescape and achieve something I want, anytime. But I can't do that in real life. That's why everyone loves playing games. It's like masturbation--you aren't getting laid but that's much better than nothing.
Chinese New Year hasn't been tiring. It's just..filling. A lot of food, free food(free for visitors such as myself), and eating and eating and more eating. And eating reminds me of a rather weird KFC advertisement starring 2 youngsters and their extended family.
So the guy gets barraged by his grandmother who was pestering him about his current relationship status like 'got girlfriend already or not..?' and he stares at KFC and starts eating a certain meal(its name escapes me). So after awhile, the grandmother moves onto the girl, and starts asking if she has a boyfriend already or not.
Then she eats KFC and ignores the elderly.
I don't really understand why people can come up with such an advertisement. It's a bit off lor. Chinese New Year is a time for family reunion, not staring at each other eat KFC, or using KFC as earmuffs. I'm quite sure everyone can relate to it though, I was accosted by one of my aunts about whether I have a girlfriend or not and I didn't really know how to reply because I'm gay, but I managed to handle it quite well I think. This is social skills, something that KFC eaters would be lacking in should they follow what is shown on advertisements.
Such advertisements are so demeaning to the spirit of Chinese New Year.
There are meaningless relationships which, when held onto, have no meaning. What is your point, and what are you trying to achieve? Aren't you wasting time flirting and trying to wriggle some stuff out? I am willing to afford that time but seriously if my efforts to reach out aren't reciprocated, why should I bother? I don't even know you in person and seriously humans are tiresome creatures. I like dealing with them when I can, but if I don't feel like it I won't. I don't know how you view it but I think the power behind these conversations lies with me, because I'm no gentleman.
Kinda just wanted to break the silence.
-- 2/18/2010 09:09:00 PM
