Evolution is a lie.
There's biology lecture test tomorrow on DNA and paper 3 or whatever shit it's called. I wanted to study for it, but realized that I
1) don't know what notes to study
2) know(think that I'm too lazy to move) that I can't absorb
3) find that it doesn't matter.
There are actually 3 tests tomorrow, out of the 5hour lessons I'm having in total.
1) Biology lecture test
2) NAPFA test
3) H1 maths test
and all I'm worried is about 2.4km, standing broad jump and pull-ups. I think I need to get between 11.50-12.50mins for silver for 2.4, and that kinda sucks because I haven't stopped failing it since the start of the year. People accumulate more fats throughout the holidays than usual, even more so should they stagnate and play Runescape all the time.
This is the only test I'm worried. This is like, the only school test I'm worried about because my after-A's Runescape plans hinges on this shit and I don't want to get into NS earlier because I want to play more Runescape.
This is what education is doing to me =\ I just want to get it over and done with.
There's always a gap between reality and dreams, and it depends on the dreamer to make up for this difference should he want the dream to come through.
What if the dreamer is too lazy? Then he'd live in regret for the rest of his life because he didn't try to bridge the gap.
Then there are times when the gap seems insurmountable, like Mt Everest square. Then you feel that despair welling up within you and you wonder whether you should move on, dream another dream, or you just end up quivering in fear not knowing whether you want to proceed onwards to what seems like a certain doom or move back, retreat back into your comfort zone and live with the regret of not having attempted. You want to know that you've tried your best but you can't bring yourself to do that because you're afraid of failing, and even if you try you won't dare to put in your all because you're afraid your efforts would be all for naught, and you end up telling your friends that you 'don't really care about the results, have fun can liao'. This half-arsed mentality is present in certain amounts in everyone, and it just so happens to be present in excess within me.
People who suffer from this syndrome normally understand that the supposed 'Mt Everest square' may not be that insurmountable after all, but they are too damned lazy to even bother trying to change their perspective. Humans are...such.
Humans should be happy, and cavemen are happy despite their many discomforts--flies, no bed, no air-conditioning, might be eaten by animals at night, etc. Evolution is a lie.
-- 3/23/2010 11:24:00 PM
