It's tiring sticking out. I know.
We always search for things we can relate to when we watch TV. When we can't relate to anything on TV, we switch channels. This way, we think that we live our lives through the actors, and by extension, that we are defining ourselves through the use of characters.
This idolization allows us to feel more self-important, and most people would like to publicize about this sudden feeling of self-worth, and that's when you see stuff like 'I'm quite like X'<--where X stands for some celebrity. Others may compliment that person too. It's boring.
But that's not the point.
I don't see a point in defining ourselves through the use of others. I don't see a point in relating our experiences to the ones on television either. The thing with the media is that there's always something orthodox, and something unorthodox. Most mainstream people follow what's orthodox, and people who are attracting attention follows the unorthodox. I like to think of myself as one who watches but doesn't follow, maybe that's why I was acting like 'Hard Gay' even before knowing what he does.
See, I just compared myself against someone, for the sake of making myself more relate-able to people. Such is how cheap the media has become, that you can't really bring across your point with examples that don't contradict yourself.
I just don't like how people copy wholesale ideas from TV drama serials and live by the codes of conduct as advocated by these shows. It's like asking the magic box(for the slow, read: TV) for advice on one's life. It's pointless, not to mention retarded, because if I want to live life by a certain script, I should be in a TV drama serial.
I'm not in one.
Why should I follow what you think is true? Why makes you think that I should follow what you follow?
'No it's not like that, it should be like this lah, you don't know what's this'<--not like you know any better when you're just blindly following, right dipshit?
TV is a means of wasting your life away, very much like games. But like games, you aren't supposed to be so absorbed that your life values and principles are derived from it.
What you want to define is yourself, and you can't define yourself through TV. Everyone is supposedly unique, and yet the same. Our nuances define us, no matter how small they are. Watching TV and absorbing the morals they incite within us removes said nuances because everyone is then taught to be the same.
What we get from TV is something that most people can relate to, which is, the main point with these slight differences everyone experiences removed. Then everyone who watches it decides that 'Hey, this sounds like me', and they decide to follow because they believe that the script is writing about themselves when it's something generic. But because of a lack of experience in the world, one isn't able to formulate enough thoughts to decide that one is oneself and not a certain storyline of a script, and thus they copy wholesale, forgetting themselves and letting themselves get defined by such programs.
What they seek for is a sense of, for a lack of better form of the word, relation, to know that people out there are actually experiencing the same thing as themselves. Groups are never individualistic in nature, and when these people rally together under the banner of a certain drama serial, they aren't that individualistic either. The price of ridding oneself of a certain lonesome feeling is one's own identity in this case, and most people are willing to forget that they actually have it in them to create their own storyline. And to live it.
It is tiring getting watered down by these mouth-breathing idiots. I get it quite often, it's like another type of religion except worse because I watch TV myself. I don't get their point, they don't get mine, and I hate to see my friends withering.
This all sounds like the Facebook pages that everyone 'Likes', right? Those "'I'm tired'--perfect excuse for being sad" or something along those lines. Seriously, who cares? Everyone knows. By liking it and putting it on your profile page you're telling people to sympathize with you, and so why would you want to come up with the excuse in the first place? It's like giving a rare invitation to everyone to enter your mind, to know how to 'interpret' your behaviour, and then go back to your furtive actions, almost like you're giving a decoder to your friends and then giving them a code for them to use the exact same decoder--POINTLESS.
I'm tired of all these pointless 'News' on Facebook, can we like do without them please? It's taking the individuality out of people. You can carry on being an idiot, like most of the people who use Facebook, but you don't have to publicize the fact that you are one. I want to shut my 'News' off from these fan pages, but I don't mind the funny ones like:
'Don't you hate it when you're swimming in the sea and a shark bites your vagina because it's your period?'
or something like that. That tickled me.
Moral of the story? I'm not too sure either. But why is everyone losing what defines them, and living a mediocre life lived by millions of other like-minded(or lack thereof) people?
I don't exactly enjoy attracting attention. Attracting attention is when you do something just to make people know you're there. I do things whether people are there or not. That's why people think I'm always desperate for attention or something, when I'm just being quite liberal with my actions. I like to scream songs at my friends, whether there are other people around or not. Am I attracting the attention of my friends? Of course. That's what you do when you talk to them, too. When I walk around with my slippers, I don't feel very confident about myself. I'd like to wear shoes and walk around in long pants, but I don't feel comfortable with all that. And I'm not comfortable with my shorts and slippers either, because everyone gives me the 'wtf' look as people don't normally walk around so sloppily. But is that my intention? I don't enjoy the attention people give when they give me the 'wtf' look, I'd rather they go masturbate or do their own thing and leave me alone like how I leave them alone.
It's tiring sticking out. I know. I haven't given up yet.
-- 5/29/2010 07:54:00 PM
