Move, go away.
I stared long at hard at my relatively clean keyboard. I don't know what to say. I have a lot of things to be angry about, but anger is an emotion that I don't want to experience this often.
But circumstances calls for it, and I don't know how to react.
Anger is a feeling, and what we do based on it normally isn't rational. I'd always try to calm myself down by asking questions like:
What are you angry about?
Does it matter?
What would you do to express your anger?
What is your point in expressing your anger?
An alternative solution without turning angry?
And:
Who would you hurt by being angry?
Actions are never going to be forgotten. I never forget (but it's all water under the bridge if you apologize). And I can never forgive if due respect is not given to me.
I may laugh and smile with you but it'd never be the same again.
I know what you've been up to. I know I'm guilty for a lot of things. But this is the last time I'm going to make this statement:
I'd never be guilt tripped by you, and from now on I'd never feel guilty.
Because you did this.
I am never bothered by events. I'm bothered by the people behind the events, because events themselves is nothing new. It's the increasing trend of the events, thus the perversion of the people behind these events, that is disturbing this way.
And now I've seen this perversion of yours, I've seen how you can fall out so easily, and I can see this event and many more to come if I don't stop now.
I can't believe that I'm being talked about on such a public medium but am unable to come up with any replies because I don't want to aggravate the situation. I find it hard to believe that such a...personal thing is placed under the public eye. For whose purview?
Yea I may sound like a hypocrite since I'm also placing such personal stuff on my freaking blog, but you know, I've never named anyone and never would and you don't even know if this is referring to you or not. That's the difference. I know I'm being talked about, you don't, though you do by virtue of the fact that you're thinking 'me' when I refer to 'you'.
To be honest, right now I am angry. But I can never show what I'm angry about because I have to act like my age.
And I like to keep my posts open-ended, so if you inquire I'd simply name another person to protect your dignity, because:
"I may laugh and smile with you but it'd never be the same again."
I am a bitch.
Hate me.
-- 10/23/2010 01:39:00 AM
