I hope to delete this post.
Sometimes, people get tired of clowns and clowning around, and they move on. But the clowns don't know what else to do besides clown around--it's their job, their duty, their livelihood, and there's no other way out for them.
It's kind of pathetic when you degenerate into clownship in someone's life, you get paid for your job, but remain inconsequential.
I'd like to be more obvious here, but I don't have the rights to and I find it stupid, really stupid, how I'm able to attract all the wrong attention to the wrong parts of me from the wrong people, but am unable to reignite the interest you used to have in me.
I don't think I changed, I don't think my entertainment value has dropped at all. Why aren't you paying anymore?
On a completely different note, this is why I find the world fucked up. It's a weird story that shows how anal people can get.
I have a teenage female friend heading off for a farm party (or so she terms). It's a party held by someone she knows, who owns a farm, and basically it's a 2 day (overnight) event with booze and approximately another 30 teenagers.
Let me teach all of you three laws that apply throughout the univers:
Human + Alcohol = Lowered inhibition
A lot of humans + Alcohol = Orgy
Alastair = Always Right.
Bet they don't teach this in law school, that's why she doesn't get it. Seems like anything that's not curricular, she don't and won't bother to try to understand.
When I told her the prospects of her going wild, or being forced to go wild in order to comply to social standards, or to see wild things occurring, are high, she simply waved it all away, chiding that I'm a 'dirty-minded freak'.
I don't know how to reply to this. It's a Law of the Universe which applies to every animate object, and the fact that she didn't want to take my word for it just struck me as the Stupid in her talking. Everyone has a Stupid in them, except that it becomes more conspicuous in certain subjects or area of concern according to each person. Of course, there are some who are Stupid all the time, but this area is one in which she is exceptionally Stupid in.
Right now, I'm going to be a psychic and tell you guys what I foresee: There won't be orgies happening, but a lot of making out and groping in plain sight, and many behind-the-scenes sex. She'd be approached by drunk guys who think that every girl is easy, and they'd probably grope her but she'd be too polite to make a response that's more than a slap. She'd not call the cops and be labelled a spoilsport, and she'd just live with the humiliation of a molested breast. She'd see many things she'd rather not know about her friends, and although she might not regret going for such an occasion, the fact remains that she'd be forever tainted by images she can, and might prefer to, live without.
I tried to tell her that I'm worried for her, because she's "pure and innocent" and all, but I know I'm just prepping her to remain chaste so that I can be the one to burglarize her.
I won't believe it if she tells me that nothing special or awkward happened in the farm stay. I have faith in the virility of young men, and the nymphomaniac tendencies of teenage girls.
I have faith in the Power of Alcohol.
The thing about me is that I hate to go around telling people "Told you so". I hate it when people do that to me, and I don't like to do unto others what I don't appreciate myself. I'd rather take some preventive measures. Instead of laughing at a rape victim with a condescending "Told you so", I'd rather leave the rape victim some pride, while preventing further rapes unto other women by -coughs- raping them myself -coughs-, I mean, by conducting self-defense courses.
I hope I'd have to take down this post.
-- 11/19/2010 09:29:00 PM
