Yep, I'm a bigot.
Some of my closer friends have wondered why I don't bother publicizing my blog. I wondered to myself too. Why don't I bother making it known to the world that I actually have a blog?
Yea, sure, I've linked and been linked to my friends' blogs, but when all is said and done, no one really refers to the links of someone's blog unless that person is damn bored. If I'm reading Fi's blog, why would I stalk the people he has linked to, when I don't even know them myself? I have better things to do, and more porn to watch, than to be engaged in reading blogs of people I don't know at all.
I think linking is an indication of solidarity. It's like if I know you have a blog, and I'm quite a good friend of yours, I'd expect myself to be linked. Linking is an indication of knowing that someone, and this behaviour of linking can also be seen as a "reading list"--meaning if you're on the list of links, the owner of the blog with that list of links is more likely to read your blog.
So anyway, besides that, I don't think I've publicized my blog much. It has never made it to my MSN, and it has never made it to Facebook, or any other social networking sites I use.
But why?
Because I'm excessively vulgar at times, and I don't want my cousins to read it. If I ever make a status update blaring at my friends to read my blog, my cousins would pick on it too. It's already proven with my latest status update:
If I flip a coin, what are my chances of getting head?
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My cousin immediately commented. I don't want him to see me for the vulgar person that I am, I don't want him to pick up my bad habits, and I don't want them to know that I'm actually very much of a bigot.
Another thing is, if I publicize my blog, I'd be making this blog more...publicized. More friends would read it, and I know they'd continue reading thanks to my humour and wit, but ultimately....why would I want them to read in the first place?
As can be seen in the blog post titled "Women are begging to be fucked" (yes, the post immediately before this one, dumbass), there's this sentiment mildly resembling "Anger". OK, I'm pretty sure that resemblance isn't mild, but the point is, I'd never put up a link to make this more accessible to the average friend. People read this of their own accord, and they aren't forced to read this or be referred to this. When I relate stories on MSN or in real life, I'd much rather narrate an entire story again rather than simply throwing my blog URL. I'd rather keep my conversations personal, and blog posts impersonal.
So why am I not getting that many viewers despite my obvious intelligence and humour? Simply because I don't really want that much attention. I'd carry on writing even if I don't get any readers, so why does it matter if I have readers in the first place or not? This is otherwise known as catharsis, and it takes place regardless of the presence/absence of readers.
Of course, getting more readers would mean that whatever I say will be mulled on by my readers, and that I'd suddenly have a bigger virtual penis, but when all is said and done, I don't plan on using my blog to earn money, and enviable though the prospect of writing bullshit and getting money for it is, it's just not my thing and it'd probably soil my writing integrity by coming up with views that are more...relevant to the average viewers and just to avoid incurring public anger. Right now, I'm not writing to fill people in about my life. It's interesting, I know, seeing as it's my life, but I'm just...not narcissistic enough to do so. I'd rather use this as some sort of venting ground to let my mind take its highly-frequent dumps.
Before you tag in anger, or send me hatemail (I've never received hate mail before, someone break my virginity in this area please), I need you to remember this: My opinions are always right. Not agreeing to my opinions makes you wrong. Arguing with me would only be foolish, since I'm never wrong. But you have a right to your opinion, just as I have a right to mine. The door swings both ways.
My practice in Bigotry will bring about much ire from readers if they get to read it. I don't want my blog to become a site that brings about disapproval from friends (thus me being averse to the idea of spreading my URL). I won't shut up about my views though, and I know people would try to shut me up. So I'd rather not fight at all, and just keep such friends out of the loop. The fact remains that one can simply Google my email address and find this blog, but then again not many people bother to stalk their friends. Once again, I'd reiterate that I am always right, and that what I speak is always the truth, but if you can't accept the truth, don't read. Seriously. Not many people can accept the truth in my words, and not reading would be better for both your blood pressure and mine.
Of course, I'd accept alternative viewpoints, discourse and other arguments over semantics, but the fact that I'm a bigot remains, and I'd never be able to truly assimilate whatever you're going to throw at me, unless I believe that I am wrong (which is never).
Always remember that I've never thrown my URL at you. It's never an in-your-face thing. You're not obliged, or made to feel obliged, to read my blog.
-- 11/30/2010 12:45:00 AM
