Perfect clarity.
I can see myself dying a bitter young man, not getting recognized for my genius and not having . Uncovering the mystery behind initials doesn't change a single shit. Changing my Runescape character name doesn't help with my fengshui. I can't sleep it off.
I get so pissed I want to saw off my dick. That, or start smoking. I can't decide which is worse.
"I remember with perfect clarity the face of every woman who ever scorned me."
-Elephant Man, from SMBC.
Everyone pisses me off. There is no exception. Don't think, don't even hope for a single second that it might be you who had wrought this bitterness in me. No one is responsible.
I received an apology from someone who thought she had the power to make me a misogynist. That's pure narcissism. She thought too highly of herself. But since she renounced me I thought I might return the favour. Why did you even bother to apologize anyway? I always thought that the conventional way of apologizing would be to do so personally (conventional = sincere). You failed to do that. So I guess you're only saying it to make yourself better. You don't even mean it. And anyway, what were you apologizing for? For being too much of a chicken shit to face me yourself? I accept your apology anyway. Simply because I know that I will emerge a better person. Simply because I know that I could've nuked you, but chose not to because I am such a magnanimous person. Know, for a fact, that you're able to live like this because of my mercy. I have every card on my hand, I simply chose not to play them. Because unlike you, I have emotions and a sense of guilt, and I don't see a need to make your life more shitty than it already is.
Face me. I might have more respect for you if you had the balls to do that. Hiding behind your friend isn't telling of your maturity. Is this what they teach you in school?
I tried finding a cause for all my angst. I couldn't pinpoint what exactly pisses me off. I don't bleed every month, so I guess this isn't a hormonal thing. It's probably a myriad of factors of which no one in particular is not a significant part of.
I want to be a hobbit. I mean, hermit.
At least I won't feel like sticking my dick into the oven.
I hate everyone.
One day, I will be devastating.
-- 4/09/2011 02:06:00 AM