"Down here, I CONTROL YOUR LIFE."
I hate it when other people waste my time for me. I like to waste time, but I don't like others to waste my time. It's like having privileges that you can't enjoy--you just don't want others to enjoy it in your place. There's morbid jealousy in every one of us, just a varying degree of how morbid/jealous.
I think I can understand why one of my close friends contemplated self-mutilation to get out of BMT. The "Rush to wait, wait to rush" saying holds so many years after the beginning of SAF. Normally when there's a problem there are solutions. When there are no solutions to a problem, it's called a situation. I really don't understand why this situation persists till even now. And I really hate feeling that my life is being wasted by the country. Sitting around doing nothing for hours on end is really a waste of my life. I could be at home playing Runescape completing tasks, quests, and masturbating to porn sites instead of being stuck in a sweat-soaked shirt waiting for something to miraculously happen due to improper planning.
I've seen pissing contests organized in a more proper fashion than this.
Being "Combat-fit" is not a good thing. It's just unhealthy. Straight out unhealthy. People go on and on about how "NS turns boys into men." But seriously, do I want to go through 2 years just to get out of this shit and be labelled a proper "man"?
Do I really care about labels?
But then again, crippling myself just to slacken my load for 2 years isn't feasible. A crippled hand is for life. NS is for 2 years.
What to do? Suck thumb lor.
Another thing I don't like about this shit is that it's severely anti-left-handed. When doing Basic Close-Combat Training, the master hand should be pulled close to the body to that when it swings out it hits for a larger impact. My master hand is obviously my left, unless you're talking about masturbating hand, which is my right. So when I assume the stance, it's different from the right-handers.
But apparently, being left-handed and expressing so is a direct infringement of certain SAF policies, and there is no room for individuals in the army. It's a right-handed world out there, despite the fact that around 1 in 8 men are left-handers. I can only guess how severely crippling we are of our combat forces.
The SAR-21 is also impossible to fire for a left-hander.
I quote "The SAR-21 is a right-handed weapon. Why you holding with your left hand? What makes you so special?"
The M16 is more left-hander friendly, and it's phased out. What can the left-handers do then? Suck thumb lor.
Such discrimination makes me feel like a minority. But are we really a minority? I'm beginning to doubt the sanctity of the state and myself. I can only blame the alcohol and the fact that I haven't masturbated for 2 weeks. Unlike most of my friends who have a social life/girlfriends, I don't have others to have sex with. So bye. I'm off to watch porn and relieve myself. I don't want any wet dreams (I dreamt of watching porn back in Tekong. How sad is that. Dreaming about watching porn is damn screwed up. It's not even dreaming about sex, it's dreaming about watching porn. How sad can my life be.)
I quote one of the sirs:
"Down here (in Pulau Tekong), I CONTROL YOUR LIFE."
That applies to masturbation in camp, which is a chargeable offence.
-- 5/17/2011 01:58:00 AM
