Anger: The biggest turn off.
You roll a 4 on the dice. You decide that there's a higher chance of getting a lower score if you choose to throw the dice again (1/2, compared to 1/3). So you give up the 1/3 chance of getting either a 5 or a 6, because the probability of getting a 1 through 4 is higher.
I'm the kind of guy who rolls a 2, and then doesn't trust his luck because he normally rolls a 1 the next time. But the most successful people throws the die again even if he'd gotten a 5. I should grow some balls. I should keep throwing.
I realized that anger is a very good way to turn me off. It is the best way to say "no" to me. I don't like making people angry. Anger, to me, is like a trump card you play only when you've exhausted every available diplomatic option. Anger, to me, is a declaration of war, an expression that you're willing to go all out to defend a certain point you're trying to make. Whenever I sense anger in someone, I know I've hit on a sore point. I know the limits, the boundaries, and I try my best to avoid these.
Whenever someone flashes his anger at me, I know that that person can never be a good friend. I know I'm an unreasonable dick, but I always know when to reasonably stop. I try my best to ignore boundaries, but I never push them too hard because I know not to. So when someone flies into a rage, I know that that someone isn't someone I can play with, nor is he someone worth playing with. Because rage is not something I want to play.
Anger is not something I express often because of said views. It's a last resort thing. It's something you do out of exasperation. It's something you do after every reasonable effort or option is exhausted. I never get to that stage. I'll never get to that stage.
I'll never flash my anger, because everything won't be the same again if it were to be expressed.
Other than that, to everyone: Thanks for being my friend. Merry Christmas. I have a lot to be contented about so I cannot complain, for exactly the same reasons as the above.
And to whom it may concern:
-- 12/25/2011 01:55:00 AM
