State of the Union.
I know I'm a loner. No, really. I think it's a good idea to watch movies alone, because being alone, you don't have to feel compelled to laugh whenever the comic scenes appear. You don't have to act like you're not scared when the ghost jumps out. You don't have to hide the fact that you're moved.
Basically, you won't have to rearrange your facial features for anyone else. Isn't that what watching movies is about? I mean, it's supposed to be dark for a reason right? Just so that you can have a little more privacy, just so that no one would catch you sleeping when you're mindfucked and too tired to think and thus sleeping during Inception.
I like that idea. I like the idea of not being scrutinized. I want to watch movies alone.
Like how I'll go support local productions tomorrow at 10.30AM.
I saw a friend on the MRT home. He was with his girlfriend, and I thought "Wah. Everyone around me getting attached worx."
Then I realized that I'm the one not moving to get out of this self-imposed solitude. OK, not that much of self-imposed, but then again, I could be more charming, I could be more careful with my words. It's just not my style.
If I were attached, I think I'd have troubles faking a smile all the time. I'd be so thoroughly scripted I won't feel like it's myself. I..would hate that.
And I'm recently fixated on this author: Douglas Kennedy. Eh he writes beautifully OK. I'm smitten by the way he describes life in "State of the Union".
"Maybe it's a reaction against mortality -- the cold, chilling, middle-of-the-night realization that everything is finite, that all the striving and ache and want and pleasures and disappointments of life vanish with us when we die. Can anyone really imagine their own death? No you on this planet -- and the very absence of you noted by so few people. Which means the point to all the striving and suffering while we are here is...?
"But there's the ongoing imponderable question, isn't it? What's the damn point? How I envy so many people who have religious faith. I've never been able to make that leap -- to accept the existence of a God and paradise eternal for thos who accept Him. But even though I think it's all nothing but a fairy tale that adults tell themselves to soften the nullity of death, it must be wonderful to proclaim: Yes, there is a point after all! Yes, I'm going to spend the rest of eternity with everyone I love..."
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-- 12/29/2011 02:15:00 AM
